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Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Chapter 17: Chew Toy
I woke up to the sound of the alarm going off, much too early; or at least that’s how it felt. I sighed and rolled over, dangling my feet off the edge of the bed, my mind wandering back over the last two days.
I hadn’t seen anyone since my run-in with Sidney, and now, Karri wasn’t even returning my phone calls. What did I do? I kept asking myself, unable to find the answer.
I let out one last huff before I pushed myself out of bed; I wasn’t even looking forward to the hockey game tonight… what a pitiful individual I was becoming.
We boarded the plane for Tampa at noon; the boys talking excitedly about our weekend south. I played some SOCOM with Flower, Geno, Tanger, TK and Staalsy; but my attention was more focused on Sidney. He was reclined back in his seat, a smug look on his face; a smug look that I took to mean one thing. Well, at least I know that she’s not calling me because she doesn’t want to talk to me…
Sidney glanced at me and couldn’t help but give me a smug smile back; if he told Karri not to talk to me, then he obviously knows she likes me… That thought was more than enough to get me through a few days of not talking to her. We had a home game on Monday, and I knew she’d be there.
“Come on Talbot! DAMNIT!” Flower called from somewhere behind me. “Pay attention… you’re running around like an idiot and making us loose.”
“Ha! Like you Frenchies could ever beat us!” Staalsy yelled out, earning laughs of approval from Geno and TK.
“He have bad hands in game too…” Geno quipped in broken English.
“Shut up Geno.” I sulked, before adding, “your girlfriend doesn’t have a problem with how I use my hands…” This got the attention of the fully plane; causing everyone except Sid and Geno to break out in hysterics.
“Oh come on Geno, you know he’s only kidding!” Flower said, slapping the bad tempered Russian on the back. I shrugged at his words, turning back around in my seat and catching Sidney’s eyes once more. I shot him a grin before turning around and looking out the window.
We had won our game against Tampa on Friday, and the one against the Panthers on Saturday; which was good. Sidney was in a much better mood that usual come Monday, and I was hoping that would mean some leeway where Karri was concerned.
I was standing in the hallway, fully dressed and waiting for Flower, when I saw her.
“Well if it isn’t little Maxime Talbot!” She laughed in her sing-song voice, coming up beside me.
“Hey now!” I laughed back, “who are you calling little?”
“You of course, trust me I’ve heard stories-”
“Everyone of ’em, lies!” I cut her off before pulling her into a tight hug. “How have you been Monique?”
I looked down at my ex-girlfriend; leaning against me in stilettos and still not reaching to my chin. “I’ve been good, I won’t even bother asking how you’ve been… big time NHLer.”
I chuckled and let her go. “So what brings you to Pittsburgh?”
“Done of school, and was lucky enough to get hired by the Penguins..”
“NO WAY!” I threw my hand up to high-five her; before realizing how much of a tool I looked like. She laughed and tried to reach for my hand, unable to jump that high. “So wait, you’re medical right?”
“Yep, and I start tonight so… wish me luck!” I threw my arm around her shoulders and led her into the dressing room before she could stop me.
“Alright guys, listen up!” I called out to the rest of my team. “This is Moni… also known as Monique… she just got hired for our medical-team. She’s a good friend from back home so you better be nice!” I felt her cringe beside me as I gave her a one-armed hug and led her around the dressing room.
“See, they’re not so bad!” I said quietly, poking her while as I lined up in the hallway with the rest of the guys.
She gave me a crooked grin and made to leave. “Oh hey,” She stopped and glanced at me over her shoulder. “You wanna grab something to eat… after you’re done?”
“Yah!” I smiled at her, “sure… sounds good.”
We lost the game 3-1; I had an assist though, so it wasn’t a total bust.
I met up with Moni as soon as I was done changing, and headed out towards the lounge. She was excited and talkative; it was easy to remember why we had gotten along so good in the past. The break-up? She wanted to get married, have the kids, the white-picket fence; we both knew that wouldn’t happen with me.
I saw Karri from across the room and she gave me a weak smile. “Hey, Moni. Come here, there’s someone I want you to meet.” We headed towards Karri; Vero and Flower standing diligently beside her. “Hey guys, this is Moni; she’s working with our medical team now.” I introduced her to Vero and Karri, pleased with the look in Karri’s eyes when she saw my arm around Moni’s shoulders.
We chatted for a while before Vero and Flower headed out to the Diesel, leaving Moni and me with Karri.
“Ummm… excuse me for a minute, little girls room…” Moni excused herself and headed across the lobby.
“So, she seems really nice.” Karri said after we both watched her leave.
“Yah, she’s an old friend from back home-” I started, turning around to look back at Karri. She was brushing her hair off her shoulder; allowing me to catch a glimpse at her neck.
Her delicate neck. The soft pale skin was now turning black and blue from what I assumed was a cluster of hickies. The most surprising sight of all though, was the clear-set of teeth marks at the base of her neck; cutting through the skin.
I gaped at her neck with an opened mouth, not even caring if she saw me. I looked up at her face, realizing that she wasn’t paying any attention to me.
I turned around to see what she was looking at and saw Sid coming through the crowd, grinning at me.
It was one thing to try and stop our communication; it was another thing entirely to use her like a chew toy to prove a point. Karri was special; not a possession. I turned back to Sidney and shot him the dirtiest look I could muster; so if that’s how you wanna play Sid the Kid… no more Mr. Nice Talbot
I hadn’t seen anyone since my run-in with Sidney, and now, Karri wasn’t even returning my phone calls. What did I do? I kept asking myself, unable to find the answer.
I let out one last huff before I pushed myself out of bed; I wasn’t even looking forward to the hockey game tonight… what a pitiful individual I was becoming.
We boarded the plane for Tampa at noon; the boys talking excitedly about our weekend south. I played some SOCOM with Flower, Geno, Tanger, TK and Staalsy; but my attention was more focused on Sidney. He was reclined back in his seat, a smug look on his face; a smug look that I took to mean one thing. Well, at least I know that she’s not calling me because she doesn’t want to talk to me…
Sidney glanced at me and couldn’t help but give me a smug smile back; if he told Karri not to talk to me, then he obviously knows she likes me… That thought was more than enough to get me through a few days of not talking to her. We had a home game on Monday, and I knew she’d be there.
“Come on Talbot! DAMNIT!” Flower called from somewhere behind me. “Pay attention… you’re running around like an idiot and making us loose.”
“Ha! Like you Frenchies could ever beat us!” Staalsy yelled out, earning laughs of approval from Geno and TK.
“He have bad hands in game too…” Geno quipped in broken English.
“Shut up Geno.” I sulked, before adding, “your girlfriend doesn’t have a problem with how I use my hands…” This got the attention of the fully plane; causing everyone except Sid and Geno to break out in hysterics.
“Oh come on Geno, you know he’s only kidding!” Flower said, slapping the bad tempered Russian on the back. I shrugged at his words, turning back around in my seat and catching Sidney’s eyes once more. I shot him a grin before turning around and looking out the window.
We had won our game against Tampa on Friday, and the one against the Panthers on Saturday; which was good. Sidney was in a much better mood that usual come Monday, and I was hoping that would mean some leeway where Karri was concerned.
I was standing in the hallway, fully dressed and waiting for Flower, when I saw her.
“Well if it isn’t little Maxime Talbot!” She laughed in her sing-song voice, coming up beside me.
“Hey now!” I laughed back, “who are you calling little?”
“You of course, trust me I’ve heard stories-”
“Everyone of ’em, lies!” I cut her off before pulling her into a tight hug. “How have you been Monique?”
I looked down at my ex-girlfriend; leaning against me in stilettos and still not reaching to my chin. “I’ve been good, I won’t even bother asking how you’ve been… big time NHLer.”
I chuckled and let her go. “So what brings you to Pittsburgh?”
“Done of school, and was lucky enough to get hired by the Penguins..”
“NO WAY!” I threw my hand up to high-five her; before realizing how much of a tool I looked like. She laughed and tried to reach for my hand, unable to jump that high. “So wait, you’re medical right?”
“Yep, and I start tonight so… wish me luck!” I threw my arm around her shoulders and led her into the dressing room before she could stop me.
“Alright guys, listen up!” I called out to the rest of my team. “This is Moni… also known as Monique… she just got hired for our medical-team. She’s a good friend from back home so you better be nice!” I felt her cringe beside me as I gave her a one-armed hug and led her around the dressing room.
“See, they’re not so bad!” I said quietly, poking her while as I lined up in the hallway with the rest of the guys.
She gave me a crooked grin and made to leave. “Oh hey,” She stopped and glanced at me over her shoulder. “You wanna grab something to eat… after you’re done?”
“Yah!” I smiled at her, “sure… sounds good.”
We lost the game 3-1; I had an assist though, so it wasn’t a total bust.
I met up with Moni as soon as I was done changing, and headed out towards the lounge. She was excited and talkative; it was easy to remember why we had gotten along so good in the past. The break-up? She wanted to get married, have the kids, the white-picket fence; we both knew that wouldn’t happen with me.
I saw Karri from across the room and she gave me a weak smile. “Hey, Moni. Come here, there’s someone I want you to meet.” We headed towards Karri; Vero and Flower standing diligently beside her. “Hey guys, this is Moni; she’s working with our medical team now.” I introduced her to Vero and Karri, pleased with the look in Karri’s eyes when she saw my arm around Moni’s shoulders.
We chatted for a while before Vero and Flower headed out to the Diesel, leaving Moni and me with Karri.
“Ummm… excuse me for a minute, little girls room…” Moni excused herself and headed across the lobby.
“So, she seems really nice.” Karri said after we both watched her leave.
“Yah, she’s an old friend from back home-” I started, turning around to look back at Karri. She was brushing her hair off her shoulder; allowing me to catch a glimpse at her neck.
Her delicate neck. The soft pale skin was now turning black and blue from what I assumed was a cluster of hickies. The most surprising sight of all though, was the clear-set of teeth marks at the base of her neck; cutting through the skin.
I gaped at her neck with an opened mouth, not even caring if she saw me. I looked up at her face, realizing that she wasn’t paying any attention to me.
I turned around to see what she was looking at and saw Sid coming through the crowd, grinning at me.
It was one thing to try and stop our communication; it was another thing entirely to use her like a chew toy to prove a point. Karri was special; not a possession. I turned back to Sidney and shot him the dirtiest look I could muster; so if that’s how you wanna play Sid the Kid… no more Mr. Nice Talbot
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Chapter 16: Inappropriate Thoughts
“Sid… don’t you think you’re over-reacting? Just a bit…” Flower and I sat together at our regular coffee shop; he was giving me a run down of all the things I had done wrong, the night before. Needless to say, there was a lot to talk about.
I sighed and fiddle with the lid of my coffee, “I never said that I wasn’t… I just… don’t know what else to do.”
“You could always… oh, I don’t know… tell her the truth.” I grimaced at the sarcasm in his voice; refusing to meet his eyes. I felt like a child being scolded for doing something wrong.
I felt horrible enough with being called out by Flower. I had been awful to Karri the night before; I knew that I was over-reacting, but I was terrified of losing her to Max. Besides, it wasn’t like this was the first time Karri had stirred up strong emotions in me.
“Look Sid, I know you don’t want to hear this but, just say Karri likes Max, wouldn’t you rather know how she feels now; instead of finding out later? If she wants to be with him then, hiding how he feels isn’t going to stop them…”
I nodded slowly. “I know, I know… You’re right, about everything. I mean, I know she loves me but; hiding this is just hurting us more. It’d be better to have it out in the open.”
Flower nodded along with my words; obviously relieved to have me on the same page again. We said goodbye and I headed home, excited to finally sort things out with Karrington, but terrified as to how things would actually play out.
She wasn’t hard to find, curled up on the couch watching The View; still in her Pjs. “Karri, can I talk to you for a minute?” I asked timidly, shrugging out of my jacket and tossing it onto the couch.
“Sure, what’s up?”
“Umm… I just wanted to say that, I’m not going to be mad at you if you wanna be friends with Max.”
“What?” She turned the TV off and stared at me, “last night… you were so mad though…”
“I know babe.” I sighed and sat down in front of her on the coffee table. “Look Karri, there’s something that I need to tell you.” She stiffened and adverted her eyes to her hands, which were shaking in her lap. I smiled to myself and reached for them; holding them steady in my own. “Max is in love with you… that’s why I flip out so much every time you talk to him.”
She stared up at me, confusion clouding her face. “Sidney, that’s ridiculous… Max is your team-mate, and he’s just a friend! He hardly knows me… Do you think you’re maybe being paranoid?”
“Oh, I’m definitely being paranoid,” I chuckled softly as I gently massaged her hands in mine, “but that doesn’t change the truth. There’s just something about the way he talks about you Karri… I don’t like it.”
She sighed and tugged me towards her. I sat on the couch and she curled up in my lap; rubbing my chest with her hand. “Well…” She started slowly, picking her words carefully. “I do like Max, he’s been a good friend to me since I’ve been here, but if it bothers you that much-, I mean-, if you’re really worried about it, I’ll stay away from him. Unless it‘s a group thing, of course.”
“But, I just said-”
“I know what you just said, but I don’t want to fight with you anymore Sidney.” She lifted her head off my shoulder and smiled down at me. “I love you and if this is important to you, then it’s important to me too.”
She rested her head back down on my shoulder as a smile spread across my face. “How did I get so lucky?”
“Don’t let it go to your ego… I’m only here because of that giant rump you‘ve got…” She quipped back lightly, her body beginning to shake slightly with her laughter.
I let out a low sight, “why does everyone have something to say about my ass?” I wrapped my arms around her tightly and scooped her up, heading towards the stairs.
“Sidney! It’s the middle of the day!” She squealed as I took the stairs two at a time.
“Exactly,” I huffed, finally reaching the top. “Means we have more time.” I heard her exhale loudly; but looked down in time to see the smile spreading across her face.
I started to kiss her as I used her body to push the door open; flopping her down on the bed as I turned on my heel and walked back on the door. “Sidney!” She whined from the bedroom as I made my way down the hallway to the large bathroom.
I turned on the hot tub; and sat on the ledge, waiting for it to fill.
I watched Karri shimmy out of her jeans as I sat in the hot water; grin spreading across my face. I watched her as she climbed in the water, unable to take my eyes of the long legs that I loved so much.
As she slipped beneath the surface I reached over and turned on the spa on, causing the water to begin it’s swirl around her. She moved towards me, climbing into my lap and resting her back against my chest. I reached up from behind her, cupping her in my hands; gently massaging her breasts as she pressed backwards into me harder.
A low moan escaped her mouth as I increased the pressure I was exerting; she reached around and grabbed onto me. I felt each finger close around me as she began to move her hand up and down.
I pushed her away from me, over to the other side of the tub. I moved her around until her back was against the side.
She wrapped her arms around my neck as I grabbed her legs and pushed myself into her. Karri began to dig her nails into the back of my neck as I thrusted into her harder.
She moaned my name into my ear and I felt myself nearing the edge. I bent forward and dug my teeth into her neck, causing her to cry out in a mixture of pain and pleasure. Tasting blood I withdrew, moving my lips up towards her jaw; sucking hard.
Normally things with Karrington were always gentle and relaxed; this time had been different.
We were curled up on the downstairs couch, back to watching day-time talk shows, when I could finally take in her appearance.
She clearly had my teeth in her neck, that was evidence; I could count how many teeth I had from here. Around the marks were three visible hickies.
We relaxed together, and I held her close. Being able to lie here with her - no tension, no worries - was a godsend. I tried to not to allow the thoughts to come in but they did; I knew at this particular time that I should be thinking about him…
I tried to drown out the words my mind was thinking by focusing on the two girls, now engaged in a cat-fight, on TV; but it was useless. I kept glancing down at Karri’s neck, smiling to myself. Wonder how long before Talbo sees that…
I sighed and fiddle with the lid of my coffee, “I never said that I wasn’t… I just… don’t know what else to do.”
“You could always… oh, I don’t know… tell her the truth.” I grimaced at the sarcasm in his voice; refusing to meet his eyes. I felt like a child being scolded for doing something wrong.
I felt horrible enough with being called out by Flower. I had been awful to Karri the night before; I knew that I was over-reacting, but I was terrified of losing her to Max. Besides, it wasn’t like this was the first time Karri had stirred up strong emotions in me.
“Look Sid, I know you don’t want to hear this but, just say Karri likes Max, wouldn’t you rather know how she feels now; instead of finding out later? If she wants to be with him then, hiding how he feels isn’t going to stop them…”
I nodded slowly. “I know, I know… You’re right, about everything. I mean, I know she loves me but; hiding this is just hurting us more. It’d be better to have it out in the open.”
Flower nodded along with my words; obviously relieved to have me on the same page again. We said goodbye and I headed home, excited to finally sort things out with Karrington, but terrified as to how things would actually play out.
She wasn’t hard to find, curled up on the couch watching The View; still in her Pjs. “Karri, can I talk to you for a minute?” I asked timidly, shrugging out of my jacket and tossing it onto the couch.
“Sure, what’s up?”
“Umm… I just wanted to say that, I’m not going to be mad at you if you wanna be friends with Max.”
“What?” She turned the TV off and stared at me, “last night… you were so mad though…”
“I know babe.” I sighed and sat down in front of her on the coffee table. “Look Karri, there’s something that I need to tell you.” She stiffened and adverted her eyes to her hands, which were shaking in her lap. I smiled to myself and reached for them; holding them steady in my own. “Max is in love with you… that’s why I flip out so much every time you talk to him.”
She stared up at me, confusion clouding her face. “Sidney, that’s ridiculous… Max is your team-mate, and he’s just a friend! He hardly knows me… Do you think you’re maybe being paranoid?”
“Oh, I’m definitely being paranoid,” I chuckled softly as I gently massaged her hands in mine, “but that doesn’t change the truth. There’s just something about the way he talks about you Karri… I don’t like it.”
She sighed and tugged me towards her. I sat on the couch and she curled up in my lap; rubbing my chest with her hand. “Well…” She started slowly, picking her words carefully. “I do like Max, he’s been a good friend to me since I’ve been here, but if it bothers you that much-, I mean-, if you’re really worried about it, I’ll stay away from him. Unless it‘s a group thing, of course.”
“But, I just said-”
“I know what you just said, but I don’t want to fight with you anymore Sidney.” She lifted her head off my shoulder and smiled down at me. “I love you and if this is important to you, then it’s important to me too.”
She rested her head back down on my shoulder as a smile spread across my face. “How did I get so lucky?”
“Don’t let it go to your ego… I’m only here because of that giant rump you‘ve got…” She quipped back lightly, her body beginning to shake slightly with her laughter.
I let out a low sight, “why does everyone have something to say about my ass?” I wrapped my arms around her tightly and scooped her up, heading towards the stairs.
“Sidney! It’s the middle of the day!” She squealed as I took the stairs two at a time.
“Exactly,” I huffed, finally reaching the top. “Means we have more time.” I heard her exhale loudly; but looked down in time to see the smile spreading across her face.
I started to kiss her as I used her body to push the door open; flopping her down on the bed as I turned on my heel and walked back on the door. “Sidney!” She whined from the bedroom as I made my way down the hallway to the large bathroom.
I turned on the hot tub; and sat on the ledge, waiting for it to fill.
I watched Karri shimmy out of her jeans as I sat in the hot water; grin spreading across my face. I watched her as she climbed in the water, unable to take my eyes of the long legs that I loved so much.
As she slipped beneath the surface I reached over and turned on the spa on, causing the water to begin it’s swirl around her. She moved towards me, climbing into my lap and resting her back against my chest. I reached up from behind her, cupping her in my hands; gently massaging her breasts as she pressed backwards into me harder.
A low moan escaped her mouth as I increased the pressure I was exerting; she reached around and grabbed onto me. I felt each finger close around me as she began to move her hand up and down.
I pushed her away from me, over to the other side of the tub. I moved her around until her back was against the side.
She wrapped her arms around my neck as I grabbed her legs and pushed myself into her. Karri began to dig her nails into the back of my neck as I thrusted into her harder.
She moaned my name into my ear and I felt myself nearing the edge. I bent forward and dug my teeth into her neck, causing her to cry out in a mixture of pain and pleasure. Tasting blood I withdrew, moving my lips up towards her jaw; sucking hard.
Normally things with Karrington were always gentle and relaxed; this time had been different.
We were curled up on the downstairs couch, back to watching day-time talk shows, when I could finally take in her appearance.
She clearly had my teeth in her neck, that was evidence; I could count how many teeth I had from here. Around the marks were three visible hickies.
We relaxed together, and I held her close. Being able to lie here with her - no tension, no worries - was a godsend. I tried to not to allow the thoughts to come in but they did; I knew at this particular time that I should be thinking about him…
I tried to drown out the words my mind was thinking by focusing on the two girls, now engaged in a cat-fight, on TV; but it was useless. I kept glancing down at Karri’s neck, smiling to myself. Wonder how long before Talbo sees that…
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Chapter 15: Cause You Can't Have It Both Ways...
When Sidney came home that night I could tell something was off. I was sitting at the top of the stairs watching him as he came through the door; his voice in a frantic whisper, carrying on a conversation with someone on the other end of the line.
“No… no… I can’t let Karri find out. Because! Look I don’t want to loose her and… I’m scared she’ll leave me if she finds out about this. Forget I brought it up… I’ll see you tomorrow. No, it’s alright… look, it doesn’t matter. No, I’m not gonna let some self-proclaimed whore take her away from me. Yah, yah… bye.”
He hung up the phone and looked around, finally seeing me for the first time. I could see his entire body tense at my presence, his mind wondering how much I had heard. “Oh, hey babe! What are you still doing awake?”
“I was talking to Max-”
“What did he say?” He scrambled up the stairs towards me, grabbing my arms in his hands and pulling me up towards him. “When were you talking to him?”
“Sidney!” I took a step back, pulling myself out of his grasp. “What’s wrong with you?” My arms were still throbbing with the pressure of his grip on me.
“Sorry, I’m sorry… I just, had a bad night. Are you ok?”
“I’m fine. I was just saying that I called Max when you didn’t answer your phone and he said he saw you in the gym. He said you’d send him home but, that was a long time ago… I was worried about you…”
His face was apologetic at once, “I’m sorry Karri, I should have called you… I just had a bad practice and I spent a long time in the gym trying to work it off.” He sighed and took a step towards me; I allowed him to pull me into a tight hug.
“Who were you talking to?” I asked, my voice muffled as my face pressed into his chest.
“Flower.”
“You seemed upset, what were you talking about?”
“Nothing.”
I knew he was hiding something from me, something that he didn’t want me to know, something bad, but I wasn’t sure what it was. I tried to ignore it as he took my hand and lead me down the hall towards our room.
Sidney was sleeping soundly beside me; his arms and legs intertwined with mine. I was comfortable, I loved sleeping beside him; waking up next to him in the morning was the prototype of perfection. I had grown up knowing this was the place I wanted to be, but I had also spent years trying to deal with the idea of never being here again.
Oddly enough, tonight, I found myself trying to find a way to remove myself of Sidney’s arms; without his knowledge.
Something just wasn’t sitting right, I thought to myself as I crossed the bedroom towards the desk where my cell phone was sitting. I grabbed it and headed into the bathroom - to avoid Sidney seeing the light from the screen. I flipped through my contacts until I found Max’s number.
Are you awake?
For you, oui. I felt a smile spread across my face; I knew Max would be the right person to ask.
I need to ask you something, and I need to know the truth.
If I know it, I’ll tell you…
I sat still for a moment, trying to find the question that I needed answered. Max, I know Sidney has always loved me; but who was the girl he was seeing before I came here? I waited for his response; praying it would be along the lines of ‘Sidney never even looked at another girl’, but I knew if I wanted to be lied to and told everything was just peachy, I could have asked Vero, Sana or Marc.
Kourtney. Was the one word answer he answered.
I stared at the tiny screen until it went dark, wondering why I had asked; having a name didn’t make me feel better, nor did knowing for sure. Everything ok babe? Max texted again, after getting no response from me.
When was the last time he saw her? My breathing quickened as I hit send.
That I don’t know… not since you’ve been down.
She’s the Emma girls’ sister right? I asked, referring to the bitch I had had the run in with at the banquet.
Yah.
Was he sleeping with her? I typed, then hit send. I had no idea why I was doing this to myself. Did it matter? Yes… even though it shouldn’t. I had ignored every man after Sidney and I broke up, but that was me; I couldn’t expect Sidney to ignore every girl just because he still loved me… but if he loved me then why would he even see another girl? I sighed as I felt the phone vibrate in my hands considering for a split second to not open it.
Yes, he was sleeping with her. What’s going on Karri? Why all the questions?
I couldn’t make my hands type the right letters, as tears blurred my vision. Instead I snuck out the bedroom and down the hall; hitting ’call’ on Max’s name.
“Max?” I sobbed into the mouthpiece.
“Karri, what’s going on? What’s happening?” I could hear his voice, sick with worry; I was so selfish - keeping him awake like this.
“Sidney was talking to Marc when he got home, he didn’t see me on the stairs and I heard… I heard…” I started sobbing, angry with myself for not being able to get the words out.
“Shh… shh… it’s ok Karri, just take your time.” Max indulged me from the other end of the phone. After a few moments of trying to pull myself together, I started again.
“He was saying that he didn’t want me to find out, because if I knew I’d leave him… then he said he wasn’t going to loose me over a ’whore’ or something.”
Max let out a sigh, “I don’t know… I’m not sure what that means. Maybe he thinks you’ll leave him if you know he slept with someone else…”
“Even though we weren’t together? That doesn’t make sense… Max, what if he’s still sleeping with her?”
There was silence on the other end of the phone; all I could hear was Max’s breathing as he thought my words over. “Karri, I don’t think he is I mean… he’s not that kind of guy.”
Every part of me wanted to believe Max; but I couldn’t bring myself to. I had never thought Sidney would be the type of guy to have sex with some random girl either, and I didn’t know Sidney to be someone to lie - which he had done, to me.
What else hasn’t he told me? I thought silently as tears reformed in my eyes.
“Could we maybe get together Max? I just don’t know what to do…”
“Sure babe. I’ll see you tomorrow, try to get some sleep.”
Sidney’s POV
“No… no… I can’t let Karri find out.” I whispered frantically into my phone, closing the door quietly behind me.
“Why not?” Flower asked from the other end of the line, still confused about my mood.
“Because! Look I don’t want to loose her and… I’m scared she’ll leave me if she finds out about this.”
“Sid, Karri loves you not Max, she’s not gonna leave you because you think he’s in love with her. Besides, she spends a lot of time with him… don’t you think it’d be better to tell her now then… wait till… something happens?”
“Forget I brought it up… I’ll see you tomorrow.” I replied abruptly, ready for this conversation to end.
“Are you sure you’re ok, want me to go over?”
“No it’s alright…”
“Sid-”
“Look, it doesn’t matter.” I sighed, running my hand through my hair.
“Sidney, I think you just need to tell her…”
“No. I’m not gonna let some self-proclaimed whore take her away from me.”
“Just don’t do anything yet, ok?”
“Yah, yah… bye.” I hung up on Flower and turned to see Karri sitting at the top of the stairs. “Oh, hey babe! What are you still doing awake?”
“I was talking to Max-” She began, but I cut her off.
“What did he say?” I shouted as I scrambled up the stairs towards her and grabbed her, pulling her towards me. “When were you talking to him?”
“Sidney!” She exclaimed in surprise, pushing me back. “What’s wrong with you?” She sighed, rubbing her arms.
“Sorry, I’m sorry… I just, had a bad night. Are you ok?”
“I’m fine. I was just saying that I called Max when you didn’t answer your phone and he said he saw you in the gym. He said you’d send him home but, that was a long time ago… I was worried about you…”
I let out a sigh, “I’m sorry Karri, I should have called you… I just had a bad practice and I spent a long time in the gym trying to work it off.” I sighed again, taking a step towards her, pulling her against me in a tight hug.
“Who were you talking to?” She asked, as I squished her into my chest.
“Flower.” I said, more shortly then I should have.
“You seemed upset, what were you talking about?”
“Nothing.” Oh, other than talking about how Max Talbot is in love with you but… you know… nothing important.
I woke up from a restless sleep to find Karri gone. Instantly I felt fear take over my body, what If she’s run again?
I got out of bed, intending to begin a man-hunt for her; but stopping short in the hallway when I heard her voice coming out from one of the spare rooms. “Could we maybe get together Max? I just don’t know what to do…”
My breath caught in my throat as I stood outside the door, listening to them say goodnight to each other. I heard the spring of the bed as she pushed herself off heading to the door. She pulled the door open and came face to face with me. “Oh my god Sidney!” She screeched, grabbing her chest. “You scared the crap out of me.” She started to chuckle a bit, but I could see the tears in her eyes.
“Karrington.” I began, trying to stay as clam as possible. “I never want you to talk to Max Talbot, ever again.”
She stared at me for a minute, all emotion drained from her face; a smile threatening the corner of her mouth as she tried to decided whether or not I was serious. My grimace left no room for misinterpretation. “What are you talking about Sidney?” She finally asked, crossing her arms over her chest.
“It’s me or him Karri… if you love me, you’ll stay away from Max.”
She looked like I had slapped her, “Sidney you know I love you-”
“Then I guess there’s nothing to think about is there?” I took her by the hand and lead her back to our bedroom, thankful when she didn’t fight me.
“No… no… I can’t let Karri find out. Because! Look I don’t want to loose her and… I’m scared she’ll leave me if she finds out about this. Forget I brought it up… I’ll see you tomorrow. No, it’s alright… look, it doesn’t matter. No, I’m not gonna let some self-proclaimed whore take her away from me. Yah, yah… bye.”
He hung up the phone and looked around, finally seeing me for the first time. I could see his entire body tense at my presence, his mind wondering how much I had heard. “Oh, hey babe! What are you still doing awake?”
“I was talking to Max-”
“What did he say?” He scrambled up the stairs towards me, grabbing my arms in his hands and pulling me up towards him. “When were you talking to him?”
“Sidney!” I took a step back, pulling myself out of his grasp. “What’s wrong with you?” My arms were still throbbing with the pressure of his grip on me.
“Sorry, I’m sorry… I just, had a bad night. Are you ok?”
“I’m fine. I was just saying that I called Max when you didn’t answer your phone and he said he saw you in the gym. He said you’d send him home but, that was a long time ago… I was worried about you…”
His face was apologetic at once, “I’m sorry Karri, I should have called you… I just had a bad practice and I spent a long time in the gym trying to work it off.” He sighed and took a step towards me; I allowed him to pull me into a tight hug.
“Who were you talking to?” I asked, my voice muffled as my face pressed into his chest.
“Flower.”
“You seemed upset, what were you talking about?”
“Nothing.”
I knew he was hiding something from me, something that he didn’t want me to know, something bad, but I wasn’t sure what it was. I tried to ignore it as he took my hand and lead me down the hall towards our room.
Sidney was sleeping soundly beside me; his arms and legs intertwined with mine. I was comfortable, I loved sleeping beside him; waking up next to him in the morning was the prototype of perfection. I had grown up knowing this was the place I wanted to be, but I had also spent years trying to deal with the idea of never being here again.
Oddly enough, tonight, I found myself trying to find a way to remove myself of Sidney’s arms; without his knowledge.
Something just wasn’t sitting right, I thought to myself as I crossed the bedroom towards the desk where my cell phone was sitting. I grabbed it and headed into the bathroom - to avoid Sidney seeing the light from the screen. I flipped through my contacts until I found Max’s number.
Are you awake?
For you, oui. I felt a smile spread across my face; I knew Max would be the right person to ask.
I need to ask you something, and I need to know the truth.
If I know it, I’ll tell you…
I sat still for a moment, trying to find the question that I needed answered. Max, I know Sidney has always loved me; but who was the girl he was seeing before I came here? I waited for his response; praying it would be along the lines of ‘Sidney never even looked at another girl’, but I knew if I wanted to be lied to and told everything was just peachy, I could have asked Vero, Sana or Marc.
Kourtney. Was the one word answer he answered.
I stared at the tiny screen until it went dark, wondering why I had asked; having a name didn’t make me feel better, nor did knowing for sure. Everything ok babe? Max texted again, after getting no response from me.
When was the last time he saw her? My breathing quickened as I hit send.
That I don’t know… not since you’ve been down.
She’s the Emma girls’ sister right? I asked, referring to the bitch I had had the run in with at the banquet.
Yah.
Was he sleeping with her? I typed, then hit send. I had no idea why I was doing this to myself. Did it matter? Yes… even though it shouldn’t. I had ignored every man after Sidney and I broke up, but that was me; I couldn’t expect Sidney to ignore every girl just because he still loved me… but if he loved me then why would he even see another girl? I sighed as I felt the phone vibrate in my hands considering for a split second to not open it.
Yes, he was sleeping with her. What’s going on Karri? Why all the questions?
I couldn’t make my hands type the right letters, as tears blurred my vision. Instead I snuck out the bedroom and down the hall; hitting ’call’ on Max’s name.
“Max?” I sobbed into the mouthpiece.
“Karri, what’s going on? What’s happening?” I could hear his voice, sick with worry; I was so selfish - keeping him awake like this.
“Sidney was talking to Marc when he got home, he didn’t see me on the stairs and I heard… I heard…” I started sobbing, angry with myself for not being able to get the words out.
“Shh… shh… it’s ok Karri, just take your time.” Max indulged me from the other end of the phone. After a few moments of trying to pull myself together, I started again.
“He was saying that he didn’t want me to find out, because if I knew I’d leave him… then he said he wasn’t going to loose me over a ’whore’ or something.”
Max let out a sigh, “I don’t know… I’m not sure what that means. Maybe he thinks you’ll leave him if you know he slept with someone else…”
“Even though we weren’t together? That doesn’t make sense… Max, what if he’s still sleeping with her?”
There was silence on the other end of the phone; all I could hear was Max’s breathing as he thought my words over. “Karri, I don’t think he is I mean… he’s not that kind of guy.”
Every part of me wanted to believe Max; but I couldn’t bring myself to. I had never thought Sidney would be the type of guy to have sex with some random girl either, and I didn’t know Sidney to be someone to lie - which he had done, to me.
What else hasn’t he told me? I thought silently as tears reformed in my eyes.
“Could we maybe get together Max? I just don’t know what to do…”
“Sure babe. I’ll see you tomorrow, try to get some sleep.”
Sidney’s POV
“No… no… I can’t let Karri find out.” I whispered frantically into my phone, closing the door quietly behind me.
“Why not?” Flower asked from the other end of the line, still confused about my mood.
“Because! Look I don’t want to loose her and… I’m scared she’ll leave me if she finds out about this.”
“Sid, Karri loves you not Max, she’s not gonna leave you because you think he’s in love with her. Besides, she spends a lot of time with him… don’t you think it’d be better to tell her now then… wait till… something happens?”
“Forget I brought it up… I’ll see you tomorrow.” I replied abruptly, ready for this conversation to end.
“Are you sure you’re ok, want me to go over?”
“No it’s alright…”
“Sid-”
“Look, it doesn’t matter.” I sighed, running my hand through my hair.
“Sidney, I think you just need to tell her…”
“No. I’m not gonna let some self-proclaimed whore take her away from me.”
“Just don’t do anything yet, ok?”
“Yah, yah… bye.” I hung up on Flower and turned to see Karri sitting at the top of the stairs. “Oh, hey babe! What are you still doing awake?”
“I was talking to Max-” She began, but I cut her off.
“What did he say?” I shouted as I scrambled up the stairs towards her and grabbed her, pulling her towards me. “When were you talking to him?”
“Sidney!” She exclaimed in surprise, pushing me back. “What’s wrong with you?” She sighed, rubbing her arms.
“Sorry, I’m sorry… I just, had a bad night. Are you ok?”
“I’m fine. I was just saying that I called Max when you didn’t answer your phone and he said he saw you in the gym. He said you’d send him home but, that was a long time ago… I was worried about you…”
I let out a sigh, “I’m sorry Karri, I should have called you… I just had a bad practice and I spent a long time in the gym trying to work it off.” I sighed again, taking a step towards her, pulling her against me in a tight hug.
“Who were you talking to?” She asked, as I squished her into my chest.
“Flower.” I said, more shortly then I should have.
“You seemed upset, what were you talking about?”
“Nothing.” Oh, other than talking about how Max Talbot is in love with you but… you know… nothing important.
I woke up from a restless sleep to find Karri gone. Instantly I felt fear take over my body, what If she’s run again?
I got out of bed, intending to begin a man-hunt for her; but stopping short in the hallway when I heard her voice coming out from one of the spare rooms. “Could we maybe get together Max? I just don’t know what to do…”
My breath caught in my throat as I stood outside the door, listening to them say goodnight to each other. I heard the spring of the bed as she pushed herself off heading to the door. She pulled the door open and came face to face with me. “Oh my god Sidney!” She screeched, grabbing her chest. “You scared the crap out of me.” She started to chuckle a bit, but I could see the tears in her eyes.
“Karrington.” I began, trying to stay as clam as possible. “I never want you to talk to Max Talbot, ever again.”
She stared at me for a minute, all emotion drained from her face; a smile threatening the corner of her mouth as she tried to decided whether or not I was serious. My grimace left no room for misinterpretation. “What are you talking about Sidney?” She finally asked, crossing her arms over her chest.
“It’s me or him Karri… if you love me, you’ll stay away from Max.”
She looked like I had slapped her, “Sidney you know I love you-”
“Then I guess there’s nothing to think about is there?” I took her by the hand and lead her back to our bedroom, thankful when she didn’t fight me.
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