So seriously... I'm not dead, and I know I've already done this on this story but...
I have a story found at traitor8.blogspot.com ... it has some Sidney Crosby in it, if you're interested.
There are a few posts up already and soon there will be nightly updates... if I left you hanging on this story... you might enjoy that.
At least something to hold you over a bit =D
Monday, November 16, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Sorry!!
Hey guys!
I'm super sorry about the lack of updates...
I'm having a very hard time writing this story right now but, trust me when I say I'm working to correct this. I have alot of ideas but I just can't seem to pull it together the way I want.
I lost a few followers (hopefully due to lack of updates and not the fact that they hate this story lol). For the people that are still reading this and waiting for an update... thanks =).
Hang around a bit more... hopefully I'll have something soon.
In the mean time... for anyone who's looking for a Sidney Crosby story, check out:
nothingworthwinning87.blogspot.com
or
goldlining87.blogspot.com
they're both great and if you love Sidney Crosby, you'll love these.
Beyond that I'm working on a duo-story with a really talented writer... onthinice29.blogspot.com (it's a Marc-Andre Fleury one... and I'm very proud of it!)
Thanks again guys!! =)
I'm super sorry about the lack of updates...
I'm having a very hard time writing this story right now but, trust me when I say I'm working to correct this. I have alot of ideas but I just can't seem to pull it together the way I want.
I lost a few followers (hopefully due to lack of updates and not the fact that they hate this story lol). For the people that are still reading this and waiting for an update... thanks =).
Hang around a bit more... hopefully I'll have something soon.
In the mean time... for anyone who's looking for a Sidney Crosby story, check out:
nothingworthwinning87.blogspot.com
or
goldlining87.blogspot.com
they're both great and if you love Sidney Crosby, you'll love these.
Beyond that I'm working on a duo-story with a really talented writer... onthinice29.blogspot.com (it's a Marc-Andre Fleury one... and I'm very proud of it!)
Thanks again guys!! =)
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Chapter 17: Chew Toy
I woke up to the sound of the alarm going off, much too early; or at least that’s how it felt. I sighed and rolled over, dangling my feet off the edge of the bed, my mind wandering back over the last two days.
I hadn’t seen anyone since my run-in with Sidney, and now, Karri wasn’t even returning my phone calls. What did I do? I kept asking myself, unable to find the answer.
I let out one last huff before I pushed myself out of bed; I wasn’t even looking forward to the hockey game tonight… what a pitiful individual I was becoming.
We boarded the plane for Tampa at noon; the boys talking excitedly about our weekend south. I played some SOCOM with Flower, Geno, Tanger, TK and Staalsy; but my attention was more focused on Sidney. He was reclined back in his seat, a smug look on his face; a smug look that I took to mean one thing. Well, at least I know that she’s not calling me because she doesn’t want to talk to me…
Sidney glanced at me and couldn’t help but give me a smug smile back; if he told Karri not to talk to me, then he obviously knows she likes me… That thought was more than enough to get me through a few days of not talking to her. We had a home game on Monday, and I knew she’d be there.
“Come on Talbot! DAMNIT!” Flower called from somewhere behind me. “Pay attention… you’re running around like an idiot and making us loose.”
“Ha! Like you Frenchies could ever beat us!” Staalsy yelled out, earning laughs of approval from Geno and TK.
“He have bad hands in game too…” Geno quipped in broken English.
“Shut up Geno.” I sulked, before adding, “your girlfriend doesn’t have a problem with how I use my hands…” This got the attention of the fully plane; causing everyone except Sid and Geno to break out in hysterics.
“Oh come on Geno, you know he’s only kidding!” Flower said, slapping the bad tempered Russian on the back. I shrugged at his words, turning back around in my seat and catching Sidney’s eyes once more. I shot him a grin before turning around and looking out the window.
We had won our game against Tampa on Friday, and the one against the Panthers on Saturday; which was good. Sidney was in a much better mood that usual come Monday, and I was hoping that would mean some leeway where Karri was concerned.
I was standing in the hallway, fully dressed and waiting for Flower, when I saw her.
“Well if it isn’t little Maxime Talbot!” She laughed in her sing-song voice, coming up beside me.
“Hey now!” I laughed back, “who are you calling little?”
“You of course, trust me I’ve heard stories-”
“Everyone of ’em, lies!” I cut her off before pulling her into a tight hug. “How have you been Monique?”
I looked down at my ex-girlfriend; leaning against me in stilettos and still not reaching to my chin. “I’ve been good, I won’t even bother asking how you’ve been… big time NHLer.”
I chuckled and let her go. “So what brings you to Pittsburgh?”
“Done of school, and was lucky enough to get hired by the Penguins..”
“NO WAY!” I threw my hand up to high-five her; before realizing how much of a tool I looked like. She laughed and tried to reach for my hand, unable to jump that high. “So wait, you’re medical right?”
“Yep, and I start tonight so… wish me luck!” I threw my arm around her shoulders and led her into the dressing room before she could stop me.
“Alright guys, listen up!” I called out to the rest of my team. “This is Moni… also known as Monique… she just got hired for our medical-team. She’s a good friend from back home so you better be nice!” I felt her cringe beside me as I gave her a one-armed hug and led her around the dressing room.
“See, they’re not so bad!” I said quietly, poking her while as I lined up in the hallway with the rest of the guys.
She gave me a crooked grin and made to leave. “Oh hey,” She stopped and glanced at me over her shoulder. “You wanna grab something to eat… after you’re done?”
“Yah!” I smiled at her, “sure… sounds good.”
We lost the game 3-1; I had an assist though, so it wasn’t a total bust.
I met up with Moni as soon as I was done changing, and headed out towards the lounge. She was excited and talkative; it was easy to remember why we had gotten along so good in the past. The break-up? She wanted to get married, have the kids, the white-picket fence; we both knew that wouldn’t happen with me.
I saw Karri from across the room and she gave me a weak smile. “Hey, Moni. Come here, there’s someone I want you to meet.” We headed towards Karri; Vero and Flower standing diligently beside her. “Hey guys, this is Moni; she’s working with our medical team now.” I introduced her to Vero and Karri, pleased with the look in Karri’s eyes when she saw my arm around Moni’s shoulders.
We chatted for a while before Vero and Flower headed out to the Diesel, leaving Moni and me with Karri.
“Ummm… excuse me for a minute, little girls room…” Moni excused herself and headed across the lobby.
“So, she seems really nice.” Karri said after we both watched her leave.
“Yah, she’s an old friend from back home-” I started, turning around to look back at Karri. She was brushing her hair off her shoulder; allowing me to catch a glimpse at her neck.
Her delicate neck. The soft pale skin was now turning black and blue from what I assumed was a cluster of hickies. The most surprising sight of all though, was the clear-set of teeth marks at the base of her neck; cutting through the skin.
I gaped at her neck with an opened mouth, not even caring if she saw me. I looked up at her face, realizing that she wasn’t paying any attention to me.
I turned around to see what she was looking at and saw Sid coming through the crowd, grinning at me.
It was one thing to try and stop our communication; it was another thing entirely to use her like a chew toy to prove a point. Karri was special; not a possession. I turned back to Sidney and shot him the dirtiest look I could muster; so if that’s how you wanna play Sid the Kid… no more Mr. Nice Talbot
I hadn’t seen anyone since my run-in with Sidney, and now, Karri wasn’t even returning my phone calls. What did I do? I kept asking myself, unable to find the answer.
I let out one last huff before I pushed myself out of bed; I wasn’t even looking forward to the hockey game tonight… what a pitiful individual I was becoming.
We boarded the plane for Tampa at noon; the boys talking excitedly about our weekend south. I played some SOCOM with Flower, Geno, Tanger, TK and Staalsy; but my attention was more focused on Sidney. He was reclined back in his seat, a smug look on his face; a smug look that I took to mean one thing. Well, at least I know that she’s not calling me because she doesn’t want to talk to me…
Sidney glanced at me and couldn’t help but give me a smug smile back; if he told Karri not to talk to me, then he obviously knows she likes me… That thought was more than enough to get me through a few days of not talking to her. We had a home game on Monday, and I knew she’d be there.
“Come on Talbot! DAMNIT!” Flower called from somewhere behind me. “Pay attention… you’re running around like an idiot and making us loose.”
“Ha! Like you Frenchies could ever beat us!” Staalsy yelled out, earning laughs of approval from Geno and TK.
“He have bad hands in game too…” Geno quipped in broken English.
“Shut up Geno.” I sulked, before adding, “your girlfriend doesn’t have a problem with how I use my hands…” This got the attention of the fully plane; causing everyone except Sid and Geno to break out in hysterics.
“Oh come on Geno, you know he’s only kidding!” Flower said, slapping the bad tempered Russian on the back. I shrugged at his words, turning back around in my seat and catching Sidney’s eyes once more. I shot him a grin before turning around and looking out the window.
We had won our game against Tampa on Friday, and the one against the Panthers on Saturday; which was good. Sidney was in a much better mood that usual come Monday, and I was hoping that would mean some leeway where Karri was concerned.
I was standing in the hallway, fully dressed and waiting for Flower, when I saw her.
“Well if it isn’t little Maxime Talbot!” She laughed in her sing-song voice, coming up beside me.
“Hey now!” I laughed back, “who are you calling little?”
“You of course, trust me I’ve heard stories-”
“Everyone of ’em, lies!” I cut her off before pulling her into a tight hug. “How have you been Monique?”
I looked down at my ex-girlfriend; leaning against me in stilettos and still not reaching to my chin. “I’ve been good, I won’t even bother asking how you’ve been… big time NHLer.”
I chuckled and let her go. “So what brings you to Pittsburgh?”
“Done of school, and was lucky enough to get hired by the Penguins..”
“NO WAY!” I threw my hand up to high-five her; before realizing how much of a tool I looked like. She laughed and tried to reach for my hand, unable to jump that high. “So wait, you’re medical right?”
“Yep, and I start tonight so… wish me luck!” I threw my arm around her shoulders and led her into the dressing room before she could stop me.
“Alright guys, listen up!” I called out to the rest of my team. “This is Moni… also known as Monique… she just got hired for our medical-team. She’s a good friend from back home so you better be nice!” I felt her cringe beside me as I gave her a one-armed hug and led her around the dressing room.
“See, they’re not so bad!” I said quietly, poking her while as I lined up in the hallway with the rest of the guys.
She gave me a crooked grin and made to leave. “Oh hey,” She stopped and glanced at me over her shoulder. “You wanna grab something to eat… after you’re done?”
“Yah!” I smiled at her, “sure… sounds good.”
We lost the game 3-1; I had an assist though, so it wasn’t a total bust.
I met up with Moni as soon as I was done changing, and headed out towards the lounge. She was excited and talkative; it was easy to remember why we had gotten along so good in the past. The break-up? She wanted to get married, have the kids, the white-picket fence; we both knew that wouldn’t happen with me.
I saw Karri from across the room and she gave me a weak smile. “Hey, Moni. Come here, there’s someone I want you to meet.” We headed towards Karri; Vero and Flower standing diligently beside her. “Hey guys, this is Moni; she’s working with our medical team now.” I introduced her to Vero and Karri, pleased with the look in Karri’s eyes when she saw my arm around Moni’s shoulders.
We chatted for a while before Vero and Flower headed out to the Diesel, leaving Moni and me with Karri.
“Ummm… excuse me for a minute, little girls room…” Moni excused herself and headed across the lobby.
“So, she seems really nice.” Karri said after we both watched her leave.
“Yah, she’s an old friend from back home-” I started, turning around to look back at Karri. She was brushing her hair off her shoulder; allowing me to catch a glimpse at her neck.
Her delicate neck. The soft pale skin was now turning black and blue from what I assumed was a cluster of hickies. The most surprising sight of all though, was the clear-set of teeth marks at the base of her neck; cutting through the skin.
I gaped at her neck with an opened mouth, not even caring if she saw me. I looked up at her face, realizing that she wasn’t paying any attention to me.
I turned around to see what she was looking at and saw Sid coming through the crowd, grinning at me.
It was one thing to try and stop our communication; it was another thing entirely to use her like a chew toy to prove a point. Karri was special; not a possession. I turned back to Sidney and shot him the dirtiest look I could muster; so if that’s how you wanna play Sid the Kid… no more Mr. Nice Talbot
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Chapter 16: Inappropriate Thoughts
“Sid… don’t you think you’re over-reacting? Just a bit…” Flower and I sat together at our regular coffee shop; he was giving me a run down of all the things I had done wrong, the night before. Needless to say, there was a lot to talk about.
I sighed and fiddle with the lid of my coffee, “I never said that I wasn’t… I just… don’t know what else to do.”
“You could always… oh, I don’t know… tell her the truth.” I grimaced at the sarcasm in his voice; refusing to meet his eyes. I felt like a child being scolded for doing something wrong.
I felt horrible enough with being called out by Flower. I had been awful to Karri the night before; I knew that I was over-reacting, but I was terrified of losing her to Max. Besides, it wasn’t like this was the first time Karri had stirred up strong emotions in me.
“Look Sid, I know you don’t want to hear this but, just say Karri likes Max, wouldn’t you rather know how she feels now; instead of finding out later? If she wants to be with him then, hiding how he feels isn’t going to stop them…”
I nodded slowly. “I know, I know… You’re right, about everything. I mean, I know she loves me but; hiding this is just hurting us more. It’d be better to have it out in the open.”
Flower nodded along with my words; obviously relieved to have me on the same page again. We said goodbye and I headed home, excited to finally sort things out with Karrington, but terrified as to how things would actually play out.
She wasn’t hard to find, curled up on the couch watching The View; still in her Pjs. “Karri, can I talk to you for a minute?” I asked timidly, shrugging out of my jacket and tossing it onto the couch.
“Sure, what’s up?”
“Umm… I just wanted to say that, I’m not going to be mad at you if you wanna be friends with Max.”
“What?” She turned the TV off and stared at me, “last night… you were so mad though…”
“I know babe.” I sighed and sat down in front of her on the coffee table. “Look Karri, there’s something that I need to tell you.” She stiffened and adverted her eyes to her hands, which were shaking in her lap. I smiled to myself and reached for them; holding them steady in my own. “Max is in love with you… that’s why I flip out so much every time you talk to him.”
She stared up at me, confusion clouding her face. “Sidney, that’s ridiculous… Max is your team-mate, and he’s just a friend! He hardly knows me… Do you think you’re maybe being paranoid?”
“Oh, I’m definitely being paranoid,” I chuckled softly as I gently massaged her hands in mine, “but that doesn’t change the truth. There’s just something about the way he talks about you Karri… I don’t like it.”
She sighed and tugged me towards her. I sat on the couch and she curled up in my lap; rubbing my chest with her hand. “Well…” She started slowly, picking her words carefully. “I do like Max, he’s been a good friend to me since I’ve been here, but if it bothers you that much-, I mean-, if you’re really worried about it, I’ll stay away from him. Unless it‘s a group thing, of course.”
“But, I just said-”
“I know what you just said, but I don’t want to fight with you anymore Sidney.” She lifted her head off my shoulder and smiled down at me. “I love you and if this is important to you, then it’s important to me too.”
She rested her head back down on my shoulder as a smile spread across my face. “How did I get so lucky?”
“Don’t let it go to your ego… I’m only here because of that giant rump you‘ve got…” She quipped back lightly, her body beginning to shake slightly with her laughter.
I let out a low sight, “why does everyone have something to say about my ass?” I wrapped my arms around her tightly and scooped her up, heading towards the stairs.
“Sidney! It’s the middle of the day!” She squealed as I took the stairs two at a time.
“Exactly,” I huffed, finally reaching the top. “Means we have more time.” I heard her exhale loudly; but looked down in time to see the smile spreading across her face.
I started to kiss her as I used her body to push the door open; flopping her down on the bed as I turned on my heel and walked back on the door. “Sidney!” She whined from the bedroom as I made my way down the hallway to the large bathroom.
I turned on the hot tub; and sat on the ledge, waiting for it to fill.
I watched Karri shimmy out of her jeans as I sat in the hot water; grin spreading across my face. I watched her as she climbed in the water, unable to take my eyes of the long legs that I loved so much.
As she slipped beneath the surface I reached over and turned on the spa on, causing the water to begin it’s swirl around her. She moved towards me, climbing into my lap and resting her back against my chest. I reached up from behind her, cupping her in my hands; gently massaging her breasts as she pressed backwards into me harder.
A low moan escaped her mouth as I increased the pressure I was exerting; she reached around and grabbed onto me. I felt each finger close around me as she began to move her hand up and down.
I pushed her away from me, over to the other side of the tub. I moved her around until her back was against the side.
She wrapped her arms around my neck as I grabbed her legs and pushed myself into her. Karri began to dig her nails into the back of my neck as I thrusted into her harder.
She moaned my name into my ear and I felt myself nearing the edge. I bent forward and dug my teeth into her neck, causing her to cry out in a mixture of pain and pleasure. Tasting blood I withdrew, moving my lips up towards her jaw; sucking hard.
Normally things with Karrington were always gentle and relaxed; this time had been different.
We were curled up on the downstairs couch, back to watching day-time talk shows, when I could finally take in her appearance.
She clearly had my teeth in her neck, that was evidence; I could count how many teeth I had from here. Around the marks were three visible hickies.
We relaxed together, and I held her close. Being able to lie here with her - no tension, no worries - was a godsend. I tried to not to allow the thoughts to come in but they did; I knew at this particular time that I should be thinking about him…
I tried to drown out the words my mind was thinking by focusing on the two girls, now engaged in a cat-fight, on TV; but it was useless. I kept glancing down at Karri’s neck, smiling to myself. Wonder how long before Talbo sees that…
I sighed and fiddle with the lid of my coffee, “I never said that I wasn’t… I just… don’t know what else to do.”
“You could always… oh, I don’t know… tell her the truth.” I grimaced at the sarcasm in his voice; refusing to meet his eyes. I felt like a child being scolded for doing something wrong.
I felt horrible enough with being called out by Flower. I had been awful to Karri the night before; I knew that I was over-reacting, but I was terrified of losing her to Max. Besides, it wasn’t like this was the first time Karri had stirred up strong emotions in me.
“Look Sid, I know you don’t want to hear this but, just say Karri likes Max, wouldn’t you rather know how she feels now; instead of finding out later? If she wants to be with him then, hiding how he feels isn’t going to stop them…”
I nodded slowly. “I know, I know… You’re right, about everything. I mean, I know she loves me but; hiding this is just hurting us more. It’d be better to have it out in the open.”
Flower nodded along with my words; obviously relieved to have me on the same page again. We said goodbye and I headed home, excited to finally sort things out with Karrington, but terrified as to how things would actually play out.
She wasn’t hard to find, curled up on the couch watching The View; still in her Pjs. “Karri, can I talk to you for a minute?” I asked timidly, shrugging out of my jacket and tossing it onto the couch.
“Sure, what’s up?”
“Umm… I just wanted to say that, I’m not going to be mad at you if you wanna be friends with Max.”
“What?” She turned the TV off and stared at me, “last night… you were so mad though…”
“I know babe.” I sighed and sat down in front of her on the coffee table. “Look Karri, there’s something that I need to tell you.” She stiffened and adverted her eyes to her hands, which were shaking in her lap. I smiled to myself and reached for them; holding them steady in my own. “Max is in love with you… that’s why I flip out so much every time you talk to him.”
She stared up at me, confusion clouding her face. “Sidney, that’s ridiculous… Max is your team-mate, and he’s just a friend! He hardly knows me… Do you think you’re maybe being paranoid?”
“Oh, I’m definitely being paranoid,” I chuckled softly as I gently massaged her hands in mine, “but that doesn’t change the truth. There’s just something about the way he talks about you Karri… I don’t like it.”
She sighed and tugged me towards her. I sat on the couch and she curled up in my lap; rubbing my chest with her hand. “Well…” She started slowly, picking her words carefully. “I do like Max, he’s been a good friend to me since I’ve been here, but if it bothers you that much-, I mean-, if you’re really worried about it, I’ll stay away from him. Unless it‘s a group thing, of course.”
“But, I just said-”
“I know what you just said, but I don’t want to fight with you anymore Sidney.” She lifted her head off my shoulder and smiled down at me. “I love you and if this is important to you, then it’s important to me too.”
She rested her head back down on my shoulder as a smile spread across my face. “How did I get so lucky?”
“Don’t let it go to your ego… I’m only here because of that giant rump you‘ve got…” She quipped back lightly, her body beginning to shake slightly with her laughter.
I let out a low sight, “why does everyone have something to say about my ass?” I wrapped my arms around her tightly and scooped her up, heading towards the stairs.
“Sidney! It’s the middle of the day!” She squealed as I took the stairs two at a time.
“Exactly,” I huffed, finally reaching the top. “Means we have more time.” I heard her exhale loudly; but looked down in time to see the smile spreading across her face.
I started to kiss her as I used her body to push the door open; flopping her down on the bed as I turned on my heel and walked back on the door. “Sidney!” She whined from the bedroom as I made my way down the hallway to the large bathroom.
I turned on the hot tub; and sat on the ledge, waiting for it to fill.
I watched Karri shimmy out of her jeans as I sat in the hot water; grin spreading across my face. I watched her as she climbed in the water, unable to take my eyes of the long legs that I loved so much.
As she slipped beneath the surface I reached over and turned on the spa on, causing the water to begin it’s swirl around her. She moved towards me, climbing into my lap and resting her back against my chest. I reached up from behind her, cupping her in my hands; gently massaging her breasts as she pressed backwards into me harder.
A low moan escaped her mouth as I increased the pressure I was exerting; she reached around and grabbed onto me. I felt each finger close around me as she began to move her hand up and down.
I pushed her away from me, over to the other side of the tub. I moved her around until her back was against the side.
She wrapped her arms around my neck as I grabbed her legs and pushed myself into her. Karri began to dig her nails into the back of my neck as I thrusted into her harder.
She moaned my name into my ear and I felt myself nearing the edge. I bent forward and dug my teeth into her neck, causing her to cry out in a mixture of pain and pleasure. Tasting blood I withdrew, moving my lips up towards her jaw; sucking hard.
Normally things with Karrington were always gentle and relaxed; this time had been different.
We were curled up on the downstairs couch, back to watching day-time talk shows, when I could finally take in her appearance.
She clearly had my teeth in her neck, that was evidence; I could count how many teeth I had from here. Around the marks were three visible hickies.
We relaxed together, and I held her close. Being able to lie here with her - no tension, no worries - was a godsend. I tried to not to allow the thoughts to come in but they did; I knew at this particular time that I should be thinking about him…
I tried to drown out the words my mind was thinking by focusing on the two girls, now engaged in a cat-fight, on TV; but it was useless. I kept glancing down at Karri’s neck, smiling to myself. Wonder how long before Talbo sees that…
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Chapter 15: Cause You Can't Have It Both Ways...
When Sidney came home that night I could tell something was off. I was sitting at the top of the stairs watching him as he came through the door; his voice in a frantic whisper, carrying on a conversation with someone on the other end of the line.
“No… no… I can’t let Karri find out. Because! Look I don’t want to loose her and… I’m scared she’ll leave me if she finds out about this. Forget I brought it up… I’ll see you tomorrow. No, it’s alright… look, it doesn’t matter. No, I’m not gonna let some self-proclaimed whore take her away from me. Yah, yah… bye.”
He hung up the phone and looked around, finally seeing me for the first time. I could see his entire body tense at my presence, his mind wondering how much I had heard. “Oh, hey babe! What are you still doing awake?”
“I was talking to Max-”
“What did he say?” He scrambled up the stairs towards me, grabbing my arms in his hands and pulling me up towards him. “When were you talking to him?”
“Sidney!” I took a step back, pulling myself out of his grasp. “What’s wrong with you?” My arms were still throbbing with the pressure of his grip on me.
“Sorry, I’m sorry… I just, had a bad night. Are you ok?”
“I’m fine. I was just saying that I called Max when you didn’t answer your phone and he said he saw you in the gym. He said you’d send him home but, that was a long time ago… I was worried about you…”
His face was apologetic at once, “I’m sorry Karri, I should have called you… I just had a bad practice and I spent a long time in the gym trying to work it off.” He sighed and took a step towards me; I allowed him to pull me into a tight hug.
“Who were you talking to?” I asked, my voice muffled as my face pressed into his chest.
“Flower.”
“You seemed upset, what were you talking about?”
“Nothing.”
I knew he was hiding something from me, something that he didn’t want me to know, something bad, but I wasn’t sure what it was. I tried to ignore it as he took my hand and lead me down the hall towards our room.
Sidney was sleeping soundly beside me; his arms and legs intertwined with mine. I was comfortable, I loved sleeping beside him; waking up next to him in the morning was the prototype of perfection. I had grown up knowing this was the place I wanted to be, but I had also spent years trying to deal with the idea of never being here again.
Oddly enough, tonight, I found myself trying to find a way to remove myself of Sidney’s arms; without his knowledge.
Something just wasn’t sitting right, I thought to myself as I crossed the bedroom towards the desk where my cell phone was sitting. I grabbed it and headed into the bathroom - to avoid Sidney seeing the light from the screen. I flipped through my contacts until I found Max’s number.
Are you awake?
For you, oui. I felt a smile spread across my face; I knew Max would be the right person to ask.
I need to ask you something, and I need to know the truth.
If I know it, I’ll tell you…
I sat still for a moment, trying to find the question that I needed answered. Max, I know Sidney has always loved me; but who was the girl he was seeing before I came here? I waited for his response; praying it would be along the lines of ‘Sidney never even looked at another girl’, but I knew if I wanted to be lied to and told everything was just peachy, I could have asked Vero, Sana or Marc.
Kourtney. Was the one word answer he answered.
I stared at the tiny screen until it went dark, wondering why I had asked; having a name didn’t make me feel better, nor did knowing for sure. Everything ok babe? Max texted again, after getting no response from me.
When was the last time he saw her? My breathing quickened as I hit send.
That I don’t know… not since you’ve been down.
She’s the Emma girls’ sister right? I asked, referring to the bitch I had had the run in with at the banquet.
Yah.
Was he sleeping with her? I typed, then hit send. I had no idea why I was doing this to myself. Did it matter? Yes… even though it shouldn’t. I had ignored every man after Sidney and I broke up, but that was me; I couldn’t expect Sidney to ignore every girl just because he still loved me… but if he loved me then why would he even see another girl? I sighed as I felt the phone vibrate in my hands considering for a split second to not open it.
Yes, he was sleeping with her. What’s going on Karri? Why all the questions?
I couldn’t make my hands type the right letters, as tears blurred my vision. Instead I snuck out the bedroom and down the hall; hitting ’call’ on Max’s name.
“Max?” I sobbed into the mouthpiece.
“Karri, what’s going on? What’s happening?” I could hear his voice, sick with worry; I was so selfish - keeping him awake like this.
“Sidney was talking to Marc when he got home, he didn’t see me on the stairs and I heard… I heard…” I started sobbing, angry with myself for not being able to get the words out.
“Shh… shh… it’s ok Karri, just take your time.” Max indulged me from the other end of the phone. After a few moments of trying to pull myself together, I started again.
“He was saying that he didn’t want me to find out, because if I knew I’d leave him… then he said he wasn’t going to loose me over a ’whore’ or something.”
Max let out a sigh, “I don’t know… I’m not sure what that means. Maybe he thinks you’ll leave him if you know he slept with someone else…”
“Even though we weren’t together? That doesn’t make sense… Max, what if he’s still sleeping with her?”
There was silence on the other end of the phone; all I could hear was Max’s breathing as he thought my words over. “Karri, I don’t think he is I mean… he’s not that kind of guy.”
Every part of me wanted to believe Max; but I couldn’t bring myself to. I had never thought Sidney would be the type of guy to have sex with some random girl either, and I didn’t know Sidney to be someone to lie - which he had done, to me.
What else hasn’t he told me? I thought silently as tears reformed in my eyes.
“Could we maybe get together Max? I just don’t know what to do…”
“Sure babe. I’ll see you tomorrow, try to get some sleep.”
Sidney’s POV
“No… no… I can’t let Karri find out.” I whispered frantically into my phone, closing the door quietly behind me.
“Why not?” Flower asked from the other end of the line, still confused about my mood.
“Because! Look I don’t want to loose her and… I’m scared she’ll leave me if she finds out about this.”
“Sid, Karri loves you not Max, she’s not gonna leave you because you think he’s in love with her. Besides, she spends a lot of time with him… don’t you think it’d be better to tell her now then… wait till… something happens?”
“Forget I brought it up… I’ll see you tomorrow.” I replied abruptly, ready for this conversation to end.
“Are you sure you’re ok, want me to go over?”
“No it’s alright…”
“Sid-”
“Look, it doesn’t matter.” I sighed, running my hand through my hair.
“Sidney, I think you just need to tell her…”
“No. I’m not gonna let some self-proclaimed whore take her away from me.”
“Just don’t do anything yet, ok?”
“Yah, yah… bye.” I hung up on Flower and turned to see Karri sitting at the top of the stairs. “Oh, hey babe! What are you still doing awake?”
“I was talking to Max-” She began, but I cut her off.
“What did he say?” I shouted as I scrambled up the stairs towards her and grabbed her, pulling her towards me. “When were you talking to him?”
“Sidney!” She exclaimed in surprise, pushing me back. “What’s wrong with you?” She sighed, rubbing her arms.
“Sorry, I’m sorry… I just, had a bad night. Are you ok?”
“I’m fine. I was just saying that I called Max when you didn’t answer your phone and he said he saw you in the gym. He said you’d send him home but, that was a long time ago… I was worried about you…”
I let out a sigh, “I’m sorry Karri, I should have called you… I just had a bad practice and I spent a long time in the gym trying to work it off.” I sighed again, taking a step towards her, pulling her against me in a tight hug.
“Who were you talking to?” She asked, as I squished her into my chest.
“Flower.” I said, more shortly then I should have.
“You seemed upset, what were you talking about?”
“Nothing.” Oh, other than talking about how Max Talbot is in love with you but… you know… nothing important.
I woke up from a restless sleep to find Karri gone. Instantly I felt fear take over my body, what If she’s run again?
I got out of bed, intending to begin a man-hunt for her; but stopping short in the hallway when I heard her voice coming out from one of the spare rooms. “Could we maybe get together Max? I just don’t know what to do…”
My breath caught in my throat as I stood outside the door, listening to them say goodnight to each other. I heard the spring of the bed as she pushed herself off heading to the door. She pulled the door open and came face to face with me. “Oh my god Sidney!” She screeched, grabbing her chest. “You scared the crap out of me.” She started to chuckle a bit, but I could see the tears in her eyes.
“Karrington.” I began, trying to stay as clam as possible. “I never want you to talk to Max Talbot, ever again.”
She stared at me for a minute, all emotion drained from her face; a smile threatening the corner of her mouth as she tried to decided whether or not I was serious. My grimace left no room for misinterpretation. “What are you talking about Sidney?” She finally asked, crossing her arms over her chest.
“It’s me or him Karri… if you love me, you’ll stay away from Max.”
She looked like I had slapped her, “Sidney you know I love you-”
“Then I guess there’s nothing to think about is there?” I took her by the hand and lead her back to our bedroom, thankful when she didn’t fight me.
“No… no… I can’t let Karri find out. Because! Look I don’t want to loose her and… I’m scared she’ll leave me if she finds out about this. Forget I brought it up… I’ll see you tomorrow. No, it’s alright… look, it doesn’t matter. No, I’m not gonna let some self-proclaimed whore take her away from me. Yah, yah… bye.”
He hung up the phone and looked around, finally seeing me for the first time. I could see his entire body tense at my presence, his mind wondering how much I had heard. “Oh, hey babe! What are you still doing awake?”
“I was talking to Max-”
“What did he say?” He scrambled up the stairs towards me, grabbing my arms in his hands and pulling me up towards him. “When were you talking to him?”
“Sidney!” I took a step back, pulling myself out of his grasp. “What’s wrong with you?” My arms were still throbbing with the pressure of his grip on me.
“Sorry, I’m sorry… I just, had a bad night. Are you ok?”
“I’m fine. I was just saying that I called Max when you didn’t answer your phone and he said he saw you in the gym. He said you’d send him home but, that was a long time ago… I was worried about you…”
His face was apologetic at once, “I’m sorry Karri, I should have called you… I just had a bad practice and I spent a long time in the gym trying to work it off.” He sighed and took a step towards me; I allowed him to pull me into a tight hug.
“Who were you talking to?” I asked, my voice muffled as my face pressed into his chest.
“Flower.”
“You seemed upset, what were you talking about?”
“Nothing.”
I knew he was hiding something from me, something that he didn’t want me to know, something bad, but I wasn’t sure what it was. I tried to ignore it as he took my hand and lead me down the hall towards our room.
Sidney was sleeping soundly beside me; his arms and legs intertwined with mine. I was comfortable, I loved sleeping beside him; waking up next to him in the morning was the prototype of perfection. I had grown up knowing this was the place I wanted to be, but I had also spent years trying to deal with the idea of never being here again.
Oddly enough, tonight, I found myself trying to find a way to remove myself of Sidney’s arms; without his knowledge.
Something just wasn’t sitting right, I thought to myself as I crossed the bedroom towards the desk where my cell phone was sitting. I grabbed it and headed into the bathroom - to avoid Sidney seeing the light from the screen. I flipped through my contacts until I found Max’s number.
Are you awake?
For you, oui. I felt a smile spread across my face; I knew Max would be the right person to ask.
I need to ask you something, and I need to know the truth.
If I know it, I’ll tell you…
I sat still for a moment, trying to find the question that I needed answered. Max, I know Sidney has always loved me; but who was the girl he was seeing before I came here? I waited for his response; praying it would be along the lines of ‘Sidney never even looked at another girl’, but I knew if I wanted to be lied to and told everything was just peachy, I could have asked Vero, Sana or Marc.
Kourtney. Was the one word answer he answered.
I stared at the tiny screen until it went dark, wondering why I had asked; having a name didn’t make me feel better, nor did knowing for sure. Everything ok babe? Max texted again, after getting no response from me.
When was the last time he saw her? My breathing quickened as I hit send.
That I don’t know… not since you’ve been down.
She’s the Emma girls’ sister right? I asked, referring to the bitch I had had the run in with at the banquet.
Yah.
Was he sleeping with her? I typed, then hit send. I had no idea why I was doing this to myself. Did it matter? Yes… even though it shouldn’t. I had ignored every man after Sidney and I broke up, but that was me; I couldn’t expect Sidney to ignore every girl just because he still loved me… but if he loved me then why would he even see another girl? I sighed as I felt the phone vibrate in my hands considering for a split second to not open it.
Yes, he was sleeping with her. What’s going on Karri? Why all the questions?
I couldn’t make my hands type the right letters, as tears blurred my vision. Instead I snuck out the bedroom and down the hall; hitting ’call’ on Max’s name.
“Max?” I sobbed into the mouthpiece.
“Karri, what’s going on? What’s happening?” I could hear his voice, sick with worry; I was so selfish - keeping him awake like this.
“Sidney was talking to Marc when he got home, he didn’t see me on the stairs and I heard… I heard…” I started sobbing, angry with myself for not being able to get the words out.
“Shh… shh… it’s ok Karri, just take your time.” Max indulged me from the other end of the phone. After a few moments of trying to pull myself together, I started again.
“He was saying that he didn’t want me to find out, because if I knew I’d leave him… then he said he wasn’t going to loose me over a ’whore’ or something.”
Max let out a sigh, “I don’t know… I’m not sure what that means. Maybe he thinks you’ll leave him if you know he slept with someone else…”
“Even though we weren’t together? That doesn’t make sense… Max, what if he’s still sleeping with her?”
There was silence on the other end of the phone; all I could hear was Max’s breathing as he thought my words over. “Karri, I don’t think he is I mean… he’s not that kind of guy.”
Every part of me wanted to believe Max; but I couldn’t bring myself to. I had never thought Sidney would be the type of guy to have sex with some random girl either, and I didn’t know Sidney to be someone to lie - which he had done, to me.
What else hasn’t he told me? I thought silently as tears reformed in my eyes.
“Could we maybe get together Max? I just don’t know what to do…”
“Sure babe. I’ll see you tomorrow, try to get some sleep.”
Sidney’s POV
“No… no… I can’t let Karri find out.” I whispered frantically into my phone, closing the door quietly behind me.
“Why not?” Flower asked from the other end of the line, still confused about my mood.
“Because! Look I don’t want to loose her and… I’m scared she’ll leave me if she finds out about this.”
“Sid, Karri loves you not Max, she’s not gonna leave you because you think he’s in love with her. Besides, she spends a lot of time with him… don’t you think it’d be better to tell her now then… wait till… something happens?”
“Forget I brought it up… I’ll see you tomorrow.” I replied abruptly, ready for this conversation to end.
“Are you sure you’re ok, want me to go over?”
“No it’s alright…”
“Sid-”
“Look, it doesn’t matter.” I sighed, running my hand through my hair.
“Sidney, I think you just need to tell her…”
“No. I’m not gonna let some self-proclaimed whore take her away from me.”
“Just don’t do anything yet, ok?”
“Yah, yah… bye.” I hung up on Flower and turned to see Karri sitting at the top of the stairs. “Oh, hey babe! What are you still doing awake?”
“I was talking to Max-” She began, but I cut her off.
“What did he say?” I shouted as I scrambled up the stairs towards her and grabbed her, pulling her towards me. “When were you talking to him?”
“Sidney!” She exclaimed in surprise, pushing me back. “What’s wrong with you?” She sighed, rubbing her arms.
“Sorry, I’m sorry… I just, had a bad night. Are you ok?”
“I’m fine. I was just saying that I called Max when you didn’t answer your phone and he said he saw you in the gym. He said you’d send him home but, that was a long time ago… I was worried about you…”
I let out a sigh, “I’m sorry Karri, I should have called you… I just had a bad practice and I spent a long time in the gym trying to work it off.” I sighed again, taking a step towards her, pulling her against me in a tight hug.
“Who were you talking to?” She asked, as I squished her into my chest.
“Flower.” I said, more shortly then I should have.
“You seemed upset, what were you talking about?”
“Nothing.” Oh, other than talking about how Max Talbot is in love with you but… you know… nothing important.
I woke up from a restless sleep to find Karri gone. Instantly I felt fear take over my body, what If she’s run again?
I got out of bed, intending to begin a man-hunt for her; but stopping short in the hallway when I heard her voice coming out from one of the spare rooms. “Could we maybe get together Max? I just don’t know what to do…”
My breath caught in my throat as I stood outside the door, listening to them say goodnight to each other. I heard the spring of the bed as she pushed herself off heading to the door. She pulled the door open and came face to face with me. “Oh my god Sidney!” She screeched, grabbing her chest. “You scared the crap out of me.” She started to chuckle a bit, but I could see the tears in her eyes.
“Karrington.” I began, trying to stay as clam as possible. “I never want you to talk to Max Talbot, ever again.”
She stared at me for a minute, all emotion drained from her face; a smile threatening the corner of her mouth as she tried to decided whether or not I was serious. My grimace left no room for misinterpretation. “What are you talking about Sidney?” She finally asked, crossing her arms over her chest.
“It’s me or him Karri… if you love me, you’ll stay away from Max.”
She looked like I had slapped her, “Sidney you know I love you-”
“Then I guess there’s nothing to think about is there?” I took her by the hand and lead her back to our bedroom, thankful when she didn’t fight me.
Monday, August 24, 2009
Chapter 14: Going Home Alone
Max’s POV
I woke up groggy, trying to remember everything that had happened last night; which was not an easy task thanks to the killer headache I was suffering with. Alright, think Maxime, you were at Diesel with TK, Tanger and some of the other boys… then… I let out a sigh; who knows. I felt the bed shift beside me and looked over.
A blond girl was curled up next to me, fast asleep. Ohhh yah… that’s what happened. I laughed as the foggy memories started to resurface.
I had gone out in order to drink Karrington away… It didn’t working out so well though. I had spent the whole night trying to have a good time; I ended up just getting completely smashed. I had invited some girls up to the VIP and I had taken the blond one home with me. I couldn’t remember too much else besides that. I looked back over at the girl beside me; she was pretty, tanned, blond, big-boob’d - basically my type. It didn’t matter that she was even above average for what I usually took home with me; I felt disgusted with myself.
What is wrong with me?
I dragged my ass out of bed and took a shower; taking an extra long time in the hopes… ‘whats-her-face’ would leave before I came out. I felt awful, like I had somehow cheated on Karri or betrayed her trust, but that’s crazy. She’s not even thinking about you man… move on.
Easier said than done…
“Bonjour mes amis!” I yelled as I skated out onto the ice, completely late for practice. I skated over to Tanger and TK, slapping TK with my stick before jumping into our ‘man-gossip’ about last night.
Dan blew his whistle before I had a chance to finish telling the guys about the chick I had taken home with me; not happy with myself but, hey, gotta keep up the image.
Sid skated up behind me and I started to turn in order to include him in the conversation; maybe if he realizes I’m tappin girls he’ll back off…
“You’re late!” he spat at my back.
“Oh I know… but Sid… you should have seen her man! I wasn’t even looking for anything last night,” cause the one I’m looking for was with you, “and she was all over me… was she ever a looker!” Nothing like Karri but, seeing as how I can’t have that… TK and Tanger shot my grins, they saw her, they knew.
“What the hell is that suppose to mean?” He shot back, Okay… woah… what just happened.
“Umm… je na sais pas… what’s going on?” I held my hand out in front of me in a sign of peace. Before he could take a swing at me, which it looked like he wanted to, Fleury grabbed him and dragged him off the ice.
“Fuck was that about?” TK asked, watching Sid and Flower exit. I shrugged in response and shook my head; trying to hide my smile. Trouble in paradise, perhaps? God I'm kind of a dick...
Practice was over and everyone else was heading home. “Hey Flower, where’s Sid?”
Flower stopped getting ready and looked at me, motioning for me to go over with a nod of his head. “Please don’t do this Maxime… I know how you feel about Karri, but you can’t ever tell him. It’d ruin him.”
I was 99% sure that Flower had no idea how I felt about Karri but, he seemed to know how much it would hurt Sidney. I nodded at him, not like I’d be stupid enough to do that. “Hey Sidney… by the way, I think I’m in love with your girlfriend!”
I walked around looking for Sidney, I wasn’t sure what I was going to say but I needed to talk to him. Somehow I needed to figure out how to apologise to him, without explaining to him why. I wasn’t actually sure why myself; maybe because I was hoping he was going to loose the love of his life, maybe it was because I was spending my nights dreaming about his girlfriend… either way, I felt pretty crappy about it.
I saw him finally in the gym, killing himself on a bike. I was about to go in when my phone went off; Karri.
“Hey mon amie… everything ok?”
“No… well… nothing’s wrong I just, I don’t know where Sidney is. I’ve had a really stressful day and Vero said that Marc got home a while ago… I just really needed someone to talk to. Do you think maybe? Do you wanna hang out? If you’re not busy… I just don’t want to be alone right now and Sidney’s not answering his phone. I could really use a friend Max…”
“Ah… Karri listen. I actually am still at the rink… and you know what? I just saw Sidney here. I’ll send him home ok?”
“Oh! Thanks Max… I knew I could count on you!” I could hear the smile in her voice as I said goodbye.
What the hell did you just do?
The right thing…
Good cause sending home Mr. ‘I’m an idiot who has the greatest girl in the world but naw… just gonna spend my night alone in the gym’… is totally the right thing. I’d be a million times better to her.
Too bad she made her choice, and it’s not me…
My internal argument continued as I took a deep breath and stepped into the gym, towards Sidney. “Sid. Can we talk for a minute?”
“What do you want?” He asked not bothering to look up, well at least he’s calmed down.
For lack of anything better to say I began explaining myself. “Look man. Nothing happened. I wouldn’t do that… wait I did, yah ok… I kissed her that one time but, it wasn’t like that. I don't want to steal your girlfriend from you. I didn't sleep with her, and I'm not trying to.” I tried to sound like it wasn’t all a lie…
He told me to leave and I lost it at him. “You’re acting like a baby!” I ended up throwing out.
Uh oh… that did it. Sidney got off the bike and took a step towards me. “What the hell did you just say to me?”
"I've done nothing wrong and neither has she. But yet she gets all this shit from the other girlfriends, the media... she just wants someone to rely on and you just... you just care about yourself. She had the worse night of her life the other day, and you should be there with her but you're not. Practice ended over an hour ago and you're still here. That's no way to treat someone you say you love."
"And what do you know about love?" He snapped, taking a few more steps towards me. "You're gonna stand there and try to tell me how to love a woman, you; Max Talbot." He sneered my name. "The only thing you know how to do is pick up and dump." He slammed his shoulder into me as he walked past.
"Why are you so mad at me? I told you I didn't do anything!" I yelled at him, trying to keep my temper under control. He had everything and he didn’t even care. I bawled my hands into fists at my side. What the hell is wrong with him anyway? I thought over the past couple days and tried to figure out what could have happened to make him act like this… "Oh... you're pissed because she came to me." I shook my head and looked down at the ground, the truth finally dawning on me. I couldn‘t help it anymore. I started to laugh. "Oh Sidney, what kind of mess are we in?"
"I don't know what you're talking about." He replied slowly, I could see rage burning in his eyes as he spoke.
I looked at him, right in the eyes. "You're upset because Karri went to me when she had no where else to go... and I'm upset, because no matter what happens she'll always go back to you." Those words had a profound impact on him and I knew I was right. Those words cut me deeper.
This time it was my turn to walk past Sidney. I didn’t stop, continuing on out the gym doors; eventually arriving at the parking lot and hopping into my Jeep.
I sped home, trying to figure out what this girl was doing to me. I tryed not to remember that if I had of taken her up on her offer, I could be with her now, instead of alone.
I woke up groggy, trying to remember everything that had happened last night; which was not an easy task thanks to the killer headache I was suffering with. Alright, think Maxime, you were at Diesel with TK, Tanger and some of the other boys… then… I let out a sigh; who knows. I felt the bed shift beside me and looked over.
A blond girl was curled up next to me, fast asleep. Ohhh yah… that’s what happened. I laughed as the foggy memories started to resurface.
I had gone out in order to drink Karrington away… It didn’t working out so well though. I had spent the whole night trying to have a good time; I ended up just getting completely smashed. I had invited some girls up to the VIP and I had taken the blond one home with me. I couldn’t remember too much else besides that. I looked back over at the girl beside me; she was pretty, tanned, blond, big-boob’d - basically my type. It didn’t matter that she was even above average for what I usually took home with me; I felt disgusted with myself.
What is wrong with me?
I dragged my ass out of bed and took a shower; taking an extra long time in the hopes… ‘whats-her-face’ would leave before I came out. I felt awful, like I had somehow cheated on Karri or betrayed her trust, but that’s crazy. She’s not even thinking about you man… move on.
Easier said than done…
“Bonjour mes amis!” I yelled as I skated out onto the ice, completely late for practice. I skated over to Tanger and TK, slapping TK with my stick before jumping into our ‘man-gossip’ about last night.
Dan blew his whistle before I had a chance to finish telling the guys about the chick I had taken home with me; not happy with myself but, hey, gotta keep up the image.
Sid skated up behind me and I started to turn in order to include him in the conversation; maybe if he realizes I’m tappin girls he’ll back off…
“You’re late!” he spat at my back.
“Oh I know… but Sid… you should have seen her man! I wasn’t even looking for anything last night,” cause the one I’m looking for was with you, “and she was all over me… was she ever a looker!” Nothing like Karri but, seeing as how I can’t have that… TK and Tanger shot my grins, they saw her, they knew.
“What the hell is that suppose to mean?” He shot back, Okay… woah… what just happened.
“Umm… je na sais pas… what’s going on?” I held my hand out in front of me in a sign of peace. Before he could take a swing at me, which it looked like he wanted to, Fleury grabbed him and dragged him off the ice.
“Fuck was that about?” TK asked, watching Sid and Flower exit. I shrugged in response and shook my head; trying to hide my smile. Trouble in paradise, perhaps? God I'm kind of a dick...
Practice was over and everyone else was heading home. “Hey Flower, where’s Sid?”
Flower stopped getting ready and looked at me, motioning for me to go over with a nod of his head. “Please don’t do this Maxime… I know how you feel about Karri, but you can’t ever tell him. It’d ruin him.”
I was 99% sure that Flower had no idea how I felt about Karri but, he seemed to know how much it would hurt Sidney. I nodded at him, not like I’d be stupid enough to do that. “Hey Sidney… by the way, I think I’m in love with your girlfriend!”
I walked around looking for Sidney, I wasn’t sure what I was going to say but I needed to talk to him. Somehow I needed to figure out how to apologise to him, without explaining to him why. I wasn’t actually sure why myself; maybe because I was hoping he was going to loose the love of his life, maybe it was because I was spending my nights dreaming about his girlfriend… either way, I felt pretty crappy about it.
I saw him finally in the gym, killing himself on a bike. I was about to go in when my phone went off; Karri.
“Hey mon amie… everything ok?”
“No… well… nothing’s wrong I just, I don’t know where Sidney is. I’ve had a really stressful day and Vero said that Marc got home a while ago… I just really needed someone to talk to. Do you think maybe? Do you wanna hang out? If you’re not busy… I just don’t want to be alone right now and Sidney’s not answering his phone. I could really use a friend Max…”
“Ah… Karri listen. I actually am still at the rink… and you know what? I just saw Sidney here. I’ll send him home ok?”
“Oh! Thanks Max… I knew I could count on you!” I could hear the smile in her voice as I said goodbye.
What the hell did you just do?
The right thing…
Good cause sending home Mr. ‘I’m an idiot who has the greatest girl in the world but naw… just gonna spend my night alone in the gym’… is totally the right thing. I’d be a million times better to her.
Too bad she made her choice, and it’s not me…
My internal argument continued as I took a deep breath and stepped into the gym, towards Sidney. “Sid. Can we talk for a minute?”
“What do you want?” He asked not bothering to look up, well at least he’s calmed down.
For lack of anything better to say I began explaining myself. “Look man. Nothing happened. I wouldn’t do that… wait I did, yah ok… I kissed her that one time but, it wasn’t like that. I don't want to steal your girlfriend from you. I didn't sleep with her, and I'm not trying to.” I tried to sound like it wasn’t all a lie…
He told me to leave and I lost it at him. “You’re acting like a baby!” I ended up throwing out.
Uh oh… that did it. Sidney got off the bike and took a step towards me. “What the hell did you just say to me?”
"I've done nothing wrong and neither has she. But yet she gets all this shit from the other girlfriends, the media... she just wants someone to rely on and you just... you just care about yourself. She had the worse night of her life the other day, and you should be there with her but you're not. Practice ended over an hour ago and you're still here. That's no way to treat someone you say you love."
"And what do you know about love?" He snapped, taking a few more steps towards me. "You're gonna stand there and try to tell me how to love a woman, you; Max Talbot." He sneered my name. "The only thing you know how to do is pick up and dump." He slammed his shoulder into me as he walked past.
"Why are you so mad at me? I told you I didn't do anything!" I yelled at him, trying to keep my temper under control. He had everything and he didn’t even care. I bawled my hands into fists at my side. What the hell is wrong with him anyway? I thought over the past couple days and tried to figure out what could have happened to make him act like this… "Oh... you're pissed because she came to me." I shook my head and looked down at the ground, the truth finally dawning on me. I couldn‘t help it anymore. I started to laugh. "Oh Sidney, what kind of mess are we in?"
"I don't know what you're talking about." He replied slowly, I could see rage burning in his eyes as he spoke.
I looked at him, right in the eyes. "You're upset because Karri went to me when she had no where else to go... and I'm upset, because no matter what happens she'll always go back to you." Those words had a profound impact on him and I knew I was right. Those words cut me deeper.
This time it was my turn to walk past Sidney. I didn’t stop, continuing on out the gym doors; eventually arriving at the parking lot and hopping into my Jeep.
I sped home, trying to figure out what this girl was doing to me. I tryed not to remember that if I had of taken her up on her offer, I could be with her now, instead of alone.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Chapter 13: The Trouble With Love...
**Didn't have time to check the spelling or anything (just a warning). I'm suffering a really bad case of writer's block, especially with this story. I know this isn't that exciting or that long but I just feel like I need to throw something up inorder to keep myself writing lol... let me know what you guys think. Anything you want to see happen?**
"So did he?" Jordan was standing behind me, whispering urgently to me as I laced up my skates.
"I don't know Jordan... Karrington wouldn't but Max-"
"Max has a way of getting what he wants," he cut me off. "Did she say anything?"
"No! I wasn't going to ask her. I just get her back and you think I'm gonna ask her whether or not she had sex with Max?" I shook my head and got up off the bench, heading towards the rink with Jordan in tow.
"Still man... don't you want to know?"
"No. Actually I don't." My tone meant that the conversation had ended. Jordan opened his mouth to say something but changed his mind; letting out a huff as we continued our way on the ice.
I thanked God for the ice; my sanctuary. As soon as my legs touched down onto the glossy surface, everything started to make more sense. This was my own refuge when things got too hard; the reason I was able to deal with everything.
When I was on the ice, regardless of whether it was a game of shimmy, a warm-up or a pro game; everything always seemed to work itself out by the end...
It was that way now. I propelled myself around the ice, gaining momentum as I pushed my legs faster and harder. After a dozen laps of the surface I let up, allowing myself to coast back around the ice and into the middle, where my team was congregating. They all looked up at my approach and I was able to give them an honest smile back.
Geno started hitting pucks out towards me, as Flower took his position in nets. With no real purpose or drills set up for the day I started taking a few shots on net.
"Hey Sid, can we stop for a bit? You're wearing me out and the other guys haven't even started yet." Flower called between squirts of water. I looked over at the clock; I'd been slapping pucks at him for almost an hour. I turned around and found the rest of the guys doing some stick-handling at the other side of the ice.
"Shit, sorry Flower... I didn't even notice..." He gave me a smile and skated out towards me, slapping me on the side with his blocker.
"Anything in particular or just... everything?"
"I don't even know." I shrugged my shoulders, and moved down the ice with the rest of the team.
"Bonjour mes amis!" Talbot called as he jumped on the ice and sprinted off towards Tanger and TK, slapping the latter with his stick as he passed.
An angry noise escaped my throat and I changed directions heading for him instead. Dan, who had no idea anything had even happened, began to blow his whistle; signalling a change in drills.
I felt Flower's pull on my right arm as I reached Max. "You're late." I spat at him, coming to a halt a few inches behind him.
He turned around and grinned at me. "Oh I know... but Sid... you should have seen her man! I wasn't even looking for anything last night and she was all over me... was she ever a looker!" He crooned, earning grins of approval from TK and Tanger.
"And what the hell is that suppose to mean?" I moved closer, until we were chest-to-chest. Max started to back up, realizing for the first time that I was angry.
"Umm... je na sais pas... what going on?" He held his hands out in front of him, giving me a look of true confusion. How was he able to brush everything off so easily? I couldn't sleep last night because of him and he was out fucking around?
I opened my mouth to say something but Flower grabbed me from behind and jerked me backwards. I followed his lead and allowed him to drag me behind me, my rant already bubbling over my lips. "The fucking nerve of him Flower! I'm up all night freaking out because there's something going on between him and Karri... and he's out fucking some tramp!"
"Calm down Sid, you don't know for sure that something's going on. I don't think there is so just... don't do anything stupid."
By this point we were in the dressing room. I pulled off my skates and chucked them as Flower watched me hesitantly from the doorway. "What?" I shouted at him, I exhaled and turned my back on him. "Sorry... I didn't mean... I'm just pissed off, about everything." I flopped down on the bench next to me and shook my head. I couldn't even go for a skate to clear my mind; not with him out there.
He was everywhere now. He had access to my home, my sanctuary, my girlfriend.
Flower gave me a small smile. "I need to get back out there Sid. I'll go talk to Dan. Maybe it would be best if you went home, spent some time with Karri." I shook my head.
"I'm just gonna go up to the gym." I pulled my practice jersey over my head and glanced around for my work-out gear. I heard Flower sigh as he closed the door behind him and made his way back out to the ice.
My muscles screamed in protest as I forced myself onwards. The handles of the stationary bike were slippery from my hands and sweat was dripping down into my eyes.
I knew that killing myself like this wasn't going to help anything; but it was nice to play the game... 'if I can go faster/further/harder, then everything will be ok'.
"Sid." A voice pulled me out of my thoughts and I glanced over my shoulder to see Max walking towards me. "Can we talk for a minute?"
"What do you want?" I asked nonchalantly. The bike had solved one problem for me; I wouldn't punch Max in the face now, I was too exhausted to do anything but keep my feet moving.
"Look man. Nothing happened. I wouldn't do that... I mean, yah ok... I kissed her that one time but, it wasn't like that. I don't want to steal your girlfriend from you. I didn't sleep with her, and I'm not trying to." He sounded sincere but I knew Max better
"I'm not in the mood for this Max... just go." I looked back at him and he was looking at his feet. He finally looked up in defeat and turned his back on me, heading towards the door.
"You know what?" He stopped suddenly, rounding on me. "If anyone should be pissed off it's her, not you! You're acting like a baby."
"What the hell did you just say to me?" I stopped pedaling and shoved myself off the bike.
"I've done nothing wrong and neither has she. But yet she gets all this shit from the other girlfriends, the media... she just wants someone to rely on and you just... you just care about yourself. She had the worse night of her life the other day, and you should br there with her but you're not. Practice ended over an hour ago and you're still here. That's no way to treat someone you say you love."
"And what do you know about love?" I snapped, taking a few steps towards him. "You're gonna stand there and try to tell me how to love a woman, you; Max Talbot. The only thing you know how to do is pick up and dump." I pushed past him, taking great care to slam my shoulder into him as I marched by.
"Why are you so mad at me? I told you I didn't do anything!" He shouted, his hands squeezing into fists at his side. I stopped walking and turned to glare at him.
Suddenly a smile snapped onto his face and let out a bark-like laugh. "Oh... you're pissed because she came to me." He shook his head and looked down at the ground, smiling to himself for a few seconds before looking back up. He started laughing loudly and I felt myself become even more infuriated. "Oh Sidney, what kind of mess are we in?"
"I don't know what you're talking about." I said, trying to control the anger and confusion in my voice.
He took a step towards me and looked directly in my eyes. "You're upset because Karri went to me when she had no where else to go... and I'm upset, because no matter what happens she'll always go back to you."
"Flower I got a problem..." I said softly into the phone as I drove back towards my house.
"What's that man?" He asked. "Max say something about Karri?"
"Yes. But not what you think. He didn't do anything, I know that for sure. He won't do anything like that."
"Well that good ri-"
I cut him off. "Flower, he doesn't want to sleep with her... I think he's in love with her."
"So did he?" Jordan was standing behind me, whispering urgently to me as I laced up my skates.
"I don't know Jordan... Karrington wouldn't but Max-"
"Max has a way of getting what he wants," he cut me off. "Did she say anything?"
"No! I wasn't going to ask her. I just get her back and you think I'm gonna ask her whether or not she had sex with Max?" I shook my head and got up off the bench, heading towards the rink with Jordan in tow.
"Still man... don't you want to know?"
"No. Actually I don't." My tone meant that the conversation had ended. Jordan opened his mouth to say something but changed his mind; letting out a huff as we continued our way on the ice.
I thanked God for the ice; my sanctuary. As soon as my legs touched down onto the glossy surface, everything started to make more sense. This was my own refuge when things got too hard; the reason I was able to deal with everything.
When I was on the ice, regardless of whether it was a game of shimmy, a warm-up or a pro game; everything always seemed to work itself out by the end...
It was that way now. I propelled myself around the ice, gaining momentum as I pushed my legs faster and harder. After a dozen laps of the surface I let up, allowing myself to coast back around the ice and into the middle, where my team was congregating. They all looked up at my approach and I was able to give them an honest smile back.
Geno started hitting pucks out towards me, as Flower took his position in nets. With no real purpose or drills set up for the day I started taking a few shots on net.
"Hey Sid, can we stop for a bit? You're wearing me out and the other guys haven't even started yet." Flower called between squirts of water. I looked over at the clock; I'd been slapping pucks at him for almost an hour. I turned around and found the rest of the guys doing some stick-handling at the other side of the ice.
"Shit, sorry Flower... I didn't even notice..." He gave me a smile and skated out towards me, slapping me on the side with his blocker.
"Anything in particular or just... everything?"
"I don't even know." I shrugged my shoulders, and moved down the ice with the rest of the team.
"Bonjour mes amis!" Talbot called as he jumped on the ice and sprinted off towards Tanger and TK, slapping the latter with his stick as he passed.
An angry noise escaped my throat and I changed directions heading for him instead. Dan, who had no idea anything had even happened, began to blow his whistle; signalling a change in drills.
I felt Flower's pull on my right arm as I reached Max. "You're late." I spat at him, coming to a halt a few inches behind him.
He turned around and grinned at me. "Oh I know... but Sid... you should have seen her man! I wasn't even looking for anything last night and she was all over me... was she ever a looker!" He crooned, earning grins of approval from TK and Tanger.
"And what the hell is that suppose to mean?" I moved closer, until we were chest-to-chest. Max started to back up, realizing for the first time that I was angry.
"Umm... je na sais pas... what going on?" He held his hands out in front of him, giving me a look of true confusion. How was he able to brush everything off so easily? I couldn't sleep last night because of him and he was out fucking around?
I opened my mouth to say something but Flower grabbed me from behind and jerked me backwards. I followed his lead and allowed him to drag me behind me, my rant already bubbling over my lips. "The fucking nerve of him Flower! I'm up all night freaking out because there's something going on between him and Karri... and he's out fucking some tramp!"
"Calm down Sid, you don't know for sure that something's going on. I don't think there is so just... don't do anything stupid."
By this point we were in the dressing room. I pulled off my skates and chucked them as Flower watched me hesitantly from the doorway. "What?" I shouted at him, I exhaled and turned my back on him. "Sorry... I didn't mean... I'm just pissed off, about everything." I flopped down on the bench next to me and shook my head. I couldn't even go for a skate to clear my mind; not with him out there.
He was everywhere now. He had access to my home, my sanctuary, my girlfriend.
Flower gave me a small smile. "I need to get back out there Sid. I'll go talk to Dan. Maybe it would be best if you went home, spent some time with Karri." I shook my head.
"I'm just gonna go up to the gym." I pulled my practice jersey over my head and glanced around for my work-out gear. I heard Flower sigh as he closed the door behind him and made his way back out to the ice.
My muscles screamed in protest as I forced myself onwards. The handles of the stationary bike were slippery from my hands and sweat was dripping down into my eyes.
I knew that killing myself like this wasn't going to help anything; but it was nice to play the game... 'if I can go faster/further/harder, then everything will be ok'.
"Sid." A voice pulled me out of my thoughts and I glanced over my shoulder to see Max walking towards me. "Can we talk for a minute?"
"What do you want?" I asked nonchalantly. The bike had solved one problem for me; I wouldn't punch Max in the face now, I was too exhausted to do anything but keep my feet moving.
"Look man. Nothing happened. I wouldn't do that... I mean, yah ok... I kissed her that one time but, it wasn't like that. I don't want to steal your girlfriend from you. I didn't sleep with her, and I'm not trying to." He sounded sincere but I knew Max better
"I'm not in the mood for this Max... just go." I looked back at him and he was looking at his feet. He finally looked up in defeat and turned his back on me, heading towards the door.
"You know what?" He stopped suddenly, rounding on me. "If anyone should be pissed off it's her, not you! You're acting like a baby."
"What the hell did you just say to me?" I stopped pedaling and shoved myself off the bike.
"I've done nothing wrong and neither has she. But yet she gets all this shit from the other girlfriends, the media... she just wants someone to rely on and you just... you just care about yourself. She had the worse night of her life the other day, and you should br there with her but you're not. Practice ended over an hour ago and you're still here. That's no way to treat someone you say you love."
"And what do you know about love?" I snapped, taking a few steps towards him. "You're gonna stand there and try to tell me how to love a woman, you; Max Talbot. The only thing you know how to do is pick up and dump." I pushed past him, taking great care to slam my shoulder into him as I marched by.
"Why are you so mad at me? I told you I didn't do anything!" He shouted, his hands squeezing into fists at his side. I stopped walking and turned to glare at him.
Suddenly a smile snapped onto his face and let out a bark-like laugh. "Oh... you're pissed because she came to me." He shook his head and looked down at the ground, smiling to himself for a few seconds before looking back up. He started laughing loudly and I felt myself become even more infuriated. "Oh Sidney, what kind of mess are we in?"
"I don't know what you're talking about." I said, trying to control the anger and confusion in my voice.
He took a step towards me and looked directly in my eyes. "You're upset because Karri went to me when she had no where else to go... and I'm upset, because no matter what happens she'll always go back to you."
"Flower I got a problem..." I said softly into the phone as I drove back towards my house.
"What's that man?" He asked. "Max say something about Karri?"
"Yes. But not what you think. He didn't do anything, I know that for sure. He won't do anything like that."
"Well that good ri-"
I cut him off. "Flower, he doesn't want to sleep with her... I think he's in love with her."
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